not joyful yet overall, but i think it will be joyful in the near future.
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Can't complain. I am pretty much at the point where I wished my life would turn out to be back when I was 16. At the time I thought if I achieved certain things in life I would be very content.
Now that I am where I wanted to be, all that I can think of now is "How do I make my life better?"...
If this keeps on going then how would I truly become happy?
I suppose recognizing it would be a pretty good place to start...
I can't remember what happened yesterday and I don't know what'll happen tomorrow, but right now I am quite joyful, yes. :)
Started amazing, so-so through elementary/middle/high school got good at end of high school then ok at beginning of college and still kinda ok. I started drinking after I turned 21 just as a recreational thing if I was bored. Bad idea. Doesn't really affect you that much at first but it's affects culminate if you drink a lot on a regular basis. My advice: never get drunk. There is no need to. Also, alcohol has no benefits at all. It can help you have fun but you won't remember it at all... so what's the point, seriously.
If you want to make your life amazing persue what you love, get a lot of friends, and get a girl or guyfriend depending which you prefer.
The Church is a great place also if you find one with good intentions.
I'll cut it way short. No.
There has been no time since 2002 in which I was happy for an extended amount of time. Before that, sure, I was great, than we lost out house, but to tell specific events would take waaay too long. So anyways I'll just say that the most enjoyable time I had was the time in which I found myself, just over two years ago while playing Final Fantasy XI though that time was no less volatile than any other. Right now, I'm far away from the things that dragged me down, and I can say its alot easier, but I'm still only half way to where I want to be, so I'm still not very happy and more on nuetral grounds with a few dips and riseshere and there, but when I get a job, than I'll be happy, because even if I hate the job its another giant step towards my goals ^-^
looks like white snake's life is too sad, hang on pal, well my biggest misery so far is the one-sided love, and yet yesterday after like 3 or months i think it was her whom i saw sitting behind and the guy was riding a bike, its more like 70% it was her, but what hurts me is that i cannot decide whether to quit right now, since what we see alone with our eyes ain't necessary the truth, it could be her brother too, she was like smiling but was not under makeup, and i had my mom sitting in my darn vehicle behind, also i was at the cross side so i cannot immediatel follow her to know the truth, its so much pathetic to not know the truth and just try to calm on while negative assumptions go on and on. i just hope it was not her. o well i believe in god.
I got work in 5 hours... Can't sleep yet I'm very tired. It's 4:27 AM. I don't know about my whole life but today is going to suck ass.. It's going to be one of those days where I'm going to want to commit suicide during work. I'm a cashier though, so I don't really have a whole lot to kill myself with. Maybe I could try a coat hanger or bash my head open on the computer screen.
Total ****. I spent my first 21 years living a completely unhappy existence. I was able to gain a new perspective which I like a lot more, but unfortunately by the time that happened I'd already sabotaged almost everything that I had going for me up to that point. The past few years have been an utterly miserable case of wishing I could make things right but having no clue as to how to do so.
I have much to complain about and often times do, but for the most part have it better than many people in the world. I have cancer and get consistently treated for it which is very unpleasant, but it could be worse. Meh, I wouldn't say my life has been joyful, but some days are, and I'm always holding hope for a better future.
Up and down all over the town. Struggling at the moment after some good years. 02-06 was pretty good.
This brings to mind a quote from Friedrich Nietzsche:
"What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more' ... Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus? Or have you once experienced a tremendous moment when you would have answered him: 'You are a god and never have I heard anything more divine.'"
I've seen a lor of highs and lows... some of the lows have been real doozies, and I think it's fair to say that where I am now isn't where I anticipated I'd be. That being said, if I had to live this life again (and innumerable times more, for that matter), I'd consider that an unbelievable blessing.
I suppose the best answer I could give to your questions is: difficult at times but fulfilling -- and, most importantly, not yet over.
From all the negative things i have become a better person. My life has been bad, but had it's super perks as well, let meexplain-
Bad- --------------------------------------------------------Good-
Bullied as a kid
Got stalked by paedophile--------------------------- Had near death experience brought my spirituality out, confirmed their is
------------------------------------------------------------God, and other spiritual experiences
bullied as a teenager--------------------------------------- Become loving kind person
attacked by my dad ------------------------------------------Good loving things has happened
bullied by my dad -------------------------------------become one of the nicest people around
Attempted suicide
Died through suffocation twice
Haunted by ghost
Used by friends for money, started doing drugs only to come out with mental problems
Ridiculously skinny, put down about my wait develped phobia of going out
Stalked by a bunch of men
People spread rumours about me at work which isn;t true now everyone thinks i'm homosexual
Dad left my mum for another woman twice, mum wen't psycho suicidal
From all the negative things i have become a better person. My life has been bad, but had it's super perks as well, let meexplain-
Bad- --------------------------------------------------------Good-
Bullied as a kid
Got stalked by paedophile--------------------------- Had near death experience brought my spirituality out, confirmed their is
------------------------------------------------------------God, and other spiritual experiences
bullied as a teenager--------------------------------------- Become loving kind person
attacked by my dad ------------------------------------------Good loving things has happened
bullied by my dad -------------------------------------become one of the nicest people around
Attempted suicide
Died through suffocation twice
Haunted by ghost
Used by friends for money, started doing drugs only to come out with mental problems
Ridiculously skinny, put down about my wait develped phobia of going out
Stalked by a bunch of men
People spread rumours about me at work which isn;t true now everyone thinks i'm homosexual
Dad left my mum for another woman twice, mum wen't psycho suicidal
caribo2222
Wow...don't know what to say
Except that I am saddened by all that you have had to go through.
I am usually a cold, calous B******...but that post made me feel very sad inside
I honestly hope things get much better for you and wish you all the happiness in the world...you freakin desearve it
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