how can i forgive?

well, i did something stupid, lets just leave it at that. it wasn't major, but its still making me feel guilty. It actually happened a month and a half ago, and i have no idea why it's affecting me now. the main reason why it hurts so much is because i keep thinking...if my friends knew...what would they think of me? would they still be my friends? or would they walk away? as much as i know that if they walked way, they wouldn't be very good friends, but i just cant help worrying and feeling guilty.

I've told myself everything. "they're not going to know...if they did, they'd still be your friends, but it doesn't matter either way because they will never know. just get on with your freakin life already".

i just want to forgive myself and forget bout this whole mess.

Any help?

If you can't tell us what happened we can't help you...

well, i did something stupid, lets just leave it at that. it wasn't major, but its still making me feel guilty. It actually happened a month and a half ago, and i have no idea why it's affecting me now. the main reason why it hurts so much is because i keep thinking...if my friends knew...what would they think of me? would they still be my friends? or would they walk away? as much as i know that if they walked way, they wouldn't be very good friends, but i just cant help worrying and feeling guilty.

I've told myself everything. "they're not going to know...if they did, they'd still be your friends, but it doesn't matter either way because they will never know. just get on with your freakin life already".

i just want to forgive myself and forget bout this whole mess.

Any help?

Darkmatter88

well, i did something stupid, lets just leave it at that. it wasn't major, but its still making me feel guilty. It actually happened a month and a half ago, and i have no idea why it's affecting me now. the main reason why it hurts so much is because i keep thinking...if my friends knew...what would they think of me? would they still be my friends? or would they walk away? as much as i know that if they walked way, they wouldn't be very good friends, but i just cant help worrying and feeling guilty.

I've told myself everything. "they're not going to know...if they did, they'd still be your friends, but it doesn't matter either way because they will never know. just get on with your freakin life already".

i just want to forgive myself and forget bout this whole mess.

Any help?

Darkmatter88

If you can't tell us what happened we can't help you...

Pirate700

I think I speak for all of OT when I ask: What did you do? megagene

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

Darkmatter88

dude everyone looks at porn

i dont see how this is a crime

but dammit if porns wrong then i dont wanna be right

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

Darkmatter88

dude everyone looks at porn

i dont see how this is a crime

but dammit if porns wrong then i dont wanna be right

spawnassasin

No. Everyone does not look at porn. I don't and never will.

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

dude everyone looks at porn

i dont see how this is a crime

but dammit if porns wrong then i dont wanna be right

GTbiking4life

No. Everyone does not look at porn. I don't and never will.

welll excccuuuuusse me, no need to take offense

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

Darkmatter88

Man for a second there i thought you killed someone or something, but porn? Everyone watches porn, its as american as apple pie!

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88

dude its perfectly normal theres no need to feel ashamed

[QUOTE="GTbiking4life"]

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

dude everyone looks at porn

i dont see how this is a crime

but dammit if porns wrong then i dont wanna be right

spawnassasin

No. Everyone does not look at porn. I don't and never will.

welll excccuuuuusse me, no need to take offense

Chill out dude - I wasn't offended, just pointing something out mate :roll:

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

[QUOTE="GTbiking4life"]

No. Everyone does not look at porn. I don't and never will.

GTbiking4life

welll excccuuuuusse me, no need to take offense

Chill out dude - I wasn't offended, just pointing something out mate :roll:

i am chill you stay chill

*runs away*

:cry:

[QUOTE="GTbiking4life"]

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

welll excccuuuuusse me, no need to take offense

spawnassasin

Chill out dude - I wasn't offended, just pointing something out mate :roll:

i am chill you stay chill

*runs away*

:cry:

* Goes and watches some porn* :D

I will never do it again.Darkmatter88

It really isn't that big of a deal. Just move on with your life and find other things to feel guilty about.

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88

Don't worry about it. If it makes you feel uncomfortable then don't look at it. But viewing it is alot more common then you think and it's normal. So enjoy... or not.

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

[QUOTE="GTbiking4life"]

Chill out dude - I wasn't offended, just pointing something out mate :roll:

xXCombatWombat

i am chill you stay chill

*runs away*

:cry:

* Goes and watches some porn* :D

i hope your not digging around in my giant box of porn:x

[QUOTE="GTbiking4life"]

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

welll excccuuuuusse me, no need to take offense

spawnassasin

Chill out dude - I wasn't offended, just pointing something out mate :roll:

i am chill you stay chill

*runs away*

:cry:

Riiiiiiiiight.

Back on topic for TC: I admit I disagree with watching porn and I personally think it's all a bunch of trash and deserves to be thrown in the dumpster where it belongs...but that's just the way I feel.

You on the other hand are relatively young I assume and need to make a choice - watch porn or not. If it bothers you that much, then don't watch it.

If you seek forgiveness than you seek His guidance.

CWU Go brother and confess thine sins.

[QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]I will never do it again.th3warr1or

no, i wont. you think you know what ive been going through? you dont.

and i already figured that its common. but, well...what do girls think of it? would they turn away from me if they knew? I know years from now I'm going to be laughing at this topic i created, by the way...but it actually is making me feel better.

[QUOTE="th3warr1or"][QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]I will never do it again.Darkmatter88

no, i wont. you think you know what ive been going through? you dont.

and i already figured that its common. but, well...what do girls think of it? would they turn away from me if they knew? I know years from now I'm going to be laughing at this topic i created, by the way...but it actually is making me feel better.

psst, girls know men are disgusting creatures. It's part of our charm 8)

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

Darkmatter88

wait thats it? some people your age are already illegally starring in that stuff you shouldnt feel bad for just looking at it :?

My girl knows, and that isn't even the root of our skirmishes.

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88

[QUOTE="th3warr1or"][QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]I will never do it again.Darkmatter88

no, i wont. you think you know what ive been going through? you dont.

and i already figured that its common. but, well...what do girls think of it? would they turn away from me if they knew? I know years from now I'm going to be laughing at this topic i created, by the way...but it actually is making me feel better.

Chicks watch porn. With guys. Or their girlfriends. EVERYONE watches porn. Sounds to me like you need to go see your pastor, as I really can't see how you'd get so upset about such a small thing unless you're hardcore religious.

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

Darkmatter88

[QUOTE="spawnassasin"]

dude everyone looks at porn

i dont see how this is a crime

but dammit if porns wrong then i dont wanna be right

GTbiking4life

No. Everyone does not look at porn. I don't and never will.

Don't worry, because they are NEVER GUNNA TO GIVE YOU UP! NEVER GUNNA LET YOU DOWN! NEVER GUNNA RUN AROUND AND DESERT YOU! NEVER GUNNA MAKE YOU CRY! NEVER GUNNA SAY GOODBYE! NEVER GUNNA TELL A LIE AND HURT YOU!

[QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]I will never do it again.th3warr1or

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

Darkmatter88

Oh man...this thread is just asking for a whole lot of entertaining gifs . Common OT, don't let me down !

[QUOTE="th3warr1or"][QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]I will never do it again.Darkmatter88

no, i wont. you think you know what ive been going through? you dont.

Dude, what kind of porn did you watch ? Was it like 2 girls a cup style, or more like a serbian movie ?

[QUOTE="Darkmatter88"]

ok fine. please dont make me feel even worse, if thats even possible anymore.

please dont judge me, im just a stupid stupid teenager. i looked up porn online.

i even went to my parents, and told them. i died like 3000 times that day. it took every bit of courage i had. i messed up, im sorry, now please tell me im completely overreacting, like I've tried telling myself.

xXCombatWombat

Man for a second there i thought you killed someone or something, but porn? Everyone watches porn, its as american as apple pie!

Are you for Real TC? You can't forgive you're self for watching porn? Who cares what your friends or family think, it's none of their business. If you weren't watching porn, you would just use your imagination and do the same thing. There are much more important moral questions out there than this.

well, its not wrong. i mean, it doesn't hurt anyone. but i feel perverted for what i did. I will never do it again.

does anyone else feel the same way as me?

Darkmatter88