I feel really disillusioned and cut off from everything, help?

Every day is just the usual. Nothing exciting. Nothing remotely driving; nothing around to motivate you to do better. I feel like my life is never going to change. I just do the same things, perform the same tasks, play the same music, post on the same websites, talk to the same people, do the same work, eat the same food..

There's no undulation. I feel totally unexcited at the prospect of everything. I smile about once every two weeks, the only time I get to be around my friends. Whenever I'm around said friends, however, it just seems like everyone avoids conversation and deliberately ignores me and refuses to acknowledge I'm there. It just makes me feel like everyone else in this bubble, having a great time, and I'm sitting there, looking at my feet.

My family life is pretty ****** up. Parents are getting divorced, can't even do it quietly. I have to hear things that I shouldn't hear about their marriage all the time. Things that I can't believe happened while I was under the same roof.

I don't have any motivation for anything. I don't even react when someone shouts at me any more, I just look away blankly. It gets called cheek, but it's just me feeling totally disconnected and in an I-don't-care way of thinking. I feel like I need to run away from everything. To get away.

But it just feels like there is no 'away'. That this is all there'll ever be; and it's all I can ever imagine. I need a break from everything, need new people. Need to see new things.

But I can't.... Every day I come home and listen to music, and day by day, it loses it's meaning. It's just that listening to the same stuff (btw I listen to loads of different music, I have about 1200 songs that I'd listen to regularly, and they go from jazz to world music to metal to grunge to pop to folk) even though it's not really the same stuff. It feels old, without meaning or purpose.

In a nutshell, I just feel like there's no point to living any more. Please don't reply to this thread if you're going to write 'get over yourself, you're probably like 13 and too young to think this, so stfu and get on with it', or something along those lines. Please offer constructive criticism and advice, not stupid trolling..

all replies are appreciated.

:| Sounds like you just to go out and have fun. Go to a strip club with your friends or something. Mix it up.

The only person that can help you with this problem is yourself. You feel unmotivated, unexcited by what you are currently doing. The solution is to do something new. Instead of just going home after school, go for a long walk somewhere. Instead of mulling around listening to music, try reading or drawing. You are the only person who can shake up your life and make it interesting again.

[QUOTE="Pirate700"]

:| Sounds like you just to go out and have fun. Go to a strip club with your friends or something. Mix it up.

clembo1990

The only person that can help you with this problem is yourself. You feel unmotivated, unexcited by what you are currently doing. The solution is to do something new. Instead of just going home after school, go for a long walk somewhere. Instead of mulling around listening to music, try reading or drawing. You are the only person who can shake up your life and make it interesting again.

foxhound_fox

[QUOTE="clembo1990"][QUOTE="Pirate700"]

:| Sounds like you just to go out and have fun. Go to a strip club with your friends or something. Mix it up.

Pirate700

[QUOTE="foxhound_fox"]

The only person that can help you with this problem is yourself. You feel unmotivated, unexcited by what you are currently doing. The solution is to do something new. Instead of just going home after school, go for a long walk somewhere. Instead of mulling around listening to music, try reading or drawing. You are the only person who can shake up your life and make it interesting again.

KOTORkicker

Go to a therapist or just go out and have fun. You need to develop a mask like I have so you can have fun with people.

[QUOTE="Pirate700"]

[QUOTE="clembo1990"] Is it just me or is the anything more unnarrousing than a strip club. clembo1990

there are some odd people on this forum...... well dude, I have actually been there myself, and I found if I set a goal and went toward it, my life would get better. Do you have a girlfriend? If you don't try getting one. Hit the mall and flirt randomly with all the girls there, that's always fun, even if you're by yourself. Try getting some more friends, why do you only see them once every two weeks? Do you go to school? Try talking to some people there, make a few new acquaintances in the neighborhood, since it's pretty obvious your current ones aren't doing you much good. I'm not trying to insult you, but life can get dry sometimes, and that's the time when you have to change things around. Since your music doesn't help much, try some uplifting trance, techno, or whatever. You could try pulling some pranks (egging cars) in the night, though that's not a very good idea.

I just listed a bunch of stuff you could potentially do to mix things up and make your life a little better.But really, your life isn't gonna get any more exciting if you don't want it to. You have to want your life to have excitement first.

Sometimes routine can be good, better than chaos that craps on everything. Seriously though find something to do that YOU really enjoy, that way doing the same stuff will not be seen as routine as much. If all the things you do are not interesting or rewarding enough maybe find new things to do. For me riding bikes made my life interesting, and gave me more friends, and something fun and interesting to do. It is a difficult activity that keeps me occupied, makes me feel like I am a part of something great, promotes good health through remaining active.. Theres always something new to learn and push towards, it is always a refreshing experience. Not to mention I can take my mind off of problems in my life that are out of my control like your parents divorce. I'm not saying you should ride, but maybe finding a activity of that nature can be a cure-all so to speak for you. Just a thought.

Dont worry about it. My parents went through a very messy devorce. It wasnt a pleasent time. Just keeping treking forward!

[QUOTE="Pirate700"]

:| Sounds like you just to go out and have fun. Go to a strip club with your friends or something. Mix it up.

clembo1990

[QUOTE="foxhound_fox"]

The only person that can help you with this problem is yourself. You feel unmotivated, unexcited by what you are currently doing. The solution is to do something new. Instead of just going home after school, go for a long walk somewhere. Instead of mulling around listening to music, try reading or drawing. You are the only person who can shake up your life and make it interesting again.

KOTORkicker

Video games bro. That's what keeps me floating. I know people laugh at it, but seriously... games are better than reading or watching a movie. I get involved in those worlds and tend to forget about everything for a while.

Only helps if you've got imagination though.

It's just a temporary solution, but better than nothing.

I feel the same way, I'm torn between two paths, one is a safe Government education with great pay, and I even get paid 50,000 dollars a year during education, the other is a way more insecure path which involves the military and hopefully politics along the way.

Ok it's not exactly the same way, but I feel very distant

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

conspirethis

[QUOTE="clembo1990"][QUOTE="Pirate700"]

:| Sounds like you just to go out and have fun. Go to a strip club with your friends or something. Mix it up.

warbmxjohn

[QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

majoras_wrath

[QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

majoras_wrath

Meh theres nothing you can do ,just commit suicide.

[QUOTE="majoras_wrath"][QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

conspirethis

Salvia, lol. Chances are he'll get so incredibly scared and shocked he'll start to love everything about his life.

(either that or a heart attack)

I'd like to do alot of those things, but take drawing for an example. I used to think I was incredible at drawing and really, really good at it. But over the last while - during the time in which this whole thing has developed - I feel I've just lost all the talent I had. I get 3/4 of the way through something and then I look at it and realise how awful and just **** it is. So I stay away from drawing, I just can't do it well anymore. I enjoy reading too, but I always feel like I should be somewhere else. I can't concentrate on it like I used to. Reading makes me feel like I'm just doing something repetitve and boring like the rest of the time. I don't feel good at all.KOTORkicker

[QUOTE="majoras_wrath"][QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

KOTORkicker

That kind of sounds like me freshman year. I felt, and still do to an extent, that our society is pretty vapid, and getting caught up in the rat race is tiresome. I was sick of living vicariously, playing video games and watching movies about other peoples' adventures, so I decided to start going on my own. Now, as often as I can, I save up money and go somewhere, or go for a long distance hike. You probably just need to find a passion. Try to go out as often as you can, even if it's for little things. I find that keeping busy really helps keep my mind off things. Start lifting or working out. Hangout with friends more often.

honestly i am exactly the same.. everything you said is exactly the same way i feel atm. there is only one thing that makes me excited, and that is the thought of a future traveling the world and serving in the army. Right now thoe i just am living for the sake of living.. i am very unmotivated at school, with friendships and everything else tbh.

[QUOTE="KOTORkicker"]I'd like to do alot of those things, but take drawing for an example. I used to think I was incredible at drawing and really, really good at it. But over the last while - during the time in which this whole thing has developed - I feel I've just lost all the talent I had. I get 3/4 of the way through something and then I look at it and realise how awful and just **** it is. So I stay away from drawing, I just can't do it well anymore. I enjoy reading too, but I always feel like I should be somewhere else. I can't concentrate on it like I used to. Reading makes me feel like I'm just doing something repetitve and boring like the rest of the time. I don't feel good at all.foxhound_fox

I'd say the aspects of my personality that are good are my creativity and open mindedness, when it comes to things to do with creativity. I can't really think of anything else, so I'm always bringing creativity to the surface anyway - I play music as often as possible in different bands, am always doing art projects, and write a short story almost every day. It just feels that they're formulaic, linear piles of bs. You're right; it's a pessimistic attitude but I just don't feel that they're any good.

1. How old are you

2. Where abouts do you live?

3. Do you have funds to do something interesting with your life? (or a job)

Sephiroths_Angel

1. 14 (please, be mature)

2. Here

3. Nope I have to go for the night, I might bump this thread in the morning.

[QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

majoras_wrath

[QUOTE="majoras_wrath"][QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

mohfrontline

[QUOTE="majoras_wrath"][QUOTE="conspirethis"]

Sounds to me you need some psychoactive therapy. Raise your consciousness, their are several techniques in doing so available via google. I used to be exactly like you 6 months ago, and then I experimented with psilocybin mushrooms, LSD etc. They are called psycho (your psych/soul/mind) "actives" for a reason.

KOTORkicker

I'd say the aspects of my personality that are good are my creativity and open mindedness, when it comes to things to do with creativity. I can't really think of anything else, so I'm always bringing creativity to the surface anyway - I play music as often as possible in different bands, am always doing art projects, and write a short story almost every day. It just feels that they're formulaic, linear piles of bs. You're right; it's a pessimistic attitude but I just don't feel that they're any good.KOTORkicker

Ahh your only 14, tbh you still haveA LOT of growing up to do (although it might not seem like it at the moment)

You have to use the bad things in your life to makes you a strongerperson, not a weaker person.

Your still at school so you should try making friends with some different groups, don't be afraid to talk to other people or sit next to someone different in classes, these are all ways that we learn new things and are able to take different paths in our lives!

I have the same problem it sucks it really does.

KOTOR, have you ever travelled? And I mean something of some consequence, at least a month abroad.

If not, you may want to consider it. I found it gave me some excellent perspective and helped put me in my place, learn to appreciate this simple things in life. I also met dozens of people that touched my life in some way and changed it for the better, and learned some great lessons on the way.

It might take some working to get it done, but it's something I think everyone should do when they're in the situation you feel you are in right now. At worst it will give you a goal and a great bit of space to think things through, while (if you're up for it) seeking others perspectives and opinions.

The one drawback is it becomes a bit too much of a draw. I get severe itches to travel ever since I went on my first. I don't consider that a bad thing necessarily.

go teach english in japan or korea. that's what i did for 2 years to get out of a funk and it worked wonders.

[QUOTE="warbmxjohn"][QUOTE="clembo1990"] Is it just me or is the anything more unnarrousing than a strip club. Maybe it's just the gaudy joints they have in my county but it's a sleasy basin of debauchery with feckless cum sharders and durtay durtay old men with sweaty fivers in a sausage mit stuffing their commerce into the underwear of stab-wounded dead-behind-the-eyes slagathors.Pirate700