i hate my life.....help?

i can't remember the last time i was "truely" happy....i'm sad over trivial things, but i can't help it....

for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...i got lucky when i was grouped with her for a history project. i don't find myself very attractive...and in my opinion this girl is the prettiest girl i've ever seen....

another thing...my college life just sucks...i already feel bad that my mom is paying a grand a semester...and i just feel like crap. i'm suppose to be in my mandarin chinese class right now, but i just ****ing gave up. i was fed up having to learn 20 characters a week. two weeks ago i actually put in effort into studying for a quiz and only god 17.5/30....that really broke my spirit, and i just didn't give a **** anymore...

it doesn't help that my brother is a lot better than i am....i mean...he's only 16 and he's doing stuff like calculus, physics, and studying french, spanish, and italian.....it really hurts me when we're having dinner with other people, and they're asking me and my bro what we're going to do, and my bro is like, oh maybe a chemist or a physicist, and i'm like, i have no clue...it makes me feel like such a dumbass

i just, have trouble setting goals you know? two days ago, i promised myself i would study some chinese, then i'm like screw it, leave it till monday....then same thing happened again yestarday, i don't know what to do...

for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...lonewolf604

k cool, i dont care.

 

 

Xxgood-timesXx

[QUOTE="Xxgood-timesXx"]

k cool, i dont care.

 

 

jachichorro

k cool, i dont care.

 

 

Xxgood-timesXx

Well heres a suggestion, two actually:

Be more focused on college. You said your mom was paying a grand a semester. Don't let that 1000 go to waste. Tell the world that your not a piece of $#15, your a man whos gonna get a well paid job. Show you family that you "can" surpass your brother.

And second would be: The girl, just spend more time with her. get to know her a little bit, and maybe start a life together.

[QUOTE="lonewolf604"]for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...Boba_Fett_3710

^ This

As for school advice:

Try harder or drop the class... :?

When making a schedule of classes take things that interest you, don't just take courses cause someone else told you too. College is about freedom. Your open to a lot of different things and you need to choose what you want to go after.

[QUOTE="lonewolf604"]for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...Boba_Fett_3710

Nobody is going to do it but yourself, you just have to find something you are good at and enjoy and go in that direction. Trying to please others is usually a thankless and impossible task. Just do what makes you happy, it's your life. Good like finding your way through this crappy thing we call life. :)double_decker

Firstly, stop comapring yourself with your bro - I mean if you're always gonna beat yourself up over someone being 'better' that you, then you're a bit pooped. **** him and what he can achieve, focus on what you want and what you can achieve within your abilities. 

Also with that girl, think about it sensibly. Can you really expect to progress with her on any front if you don't do any leg-work? take the intiative and talk to her!

[QUOTE="Boba_Fett_3710"][QUOTE="lonewolf604"]for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...DJCUEBALL

Dude just do whatever you like whenever you like without caring too much about other people. And the thing about your brother, if you keep saying that to yourself you wont achieve anything other than total misery. And be a man.hellraiser_07

[QUOTE="lonewolf604"]for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...Boba_Fett_3710

[QUOTE="Xxgood-timesXx"]

k cool, i dont care.

 

 

Scarker

 To be mean or to get another post count.

well...i do play music, piano, guitar, and bass...they are often my medium for relieving painlonewolf604

[QUOTE="Boba_Fett_3710"][QUOTE="lonewolf604"]for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...DivergeUnify

You doing much better then me.  I can't think of much else to say.

thanks for replying in my old sad thread btw :)

Follow these three steps and man up.

Get more focused on your studies or take a break from school if you need to figure what you really want to do. No sense on wasting your moms money if you aren't sure what you plan on doing later in life.

Get more involved with activities around your school if you decide to stay. Intramural sports and clubs offer a good way to meet new people.

Start exercising. This is the easiest thing you can do to make you feel better about yourself.

i can't remember the last time i was "truely" happy....i'm sad over trivial things, but i can't help it....

for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...i got lucky when i was grouped with her for a history project. i don't find myself very attractive...and in my opinion this girl is the prettiest girl i've ever seen....

another thing...my college life just sucks...i already feel bad that my mom is paying a grand a semester...and i just feel like crap. i'm suppose to be in my mandarin chinese class right now, but i just *** gave up. i was fed up having to learn 20 characters a week. two weeks ago i actually put in effort into studying for a quiz and only god 17.5/30....that really broke my spirit, and i just didn't give a **** anymore...

it doesn't help that my brother is a lot better than i am....i mean...he's only 16 and he's doing stuff like calculus, physics, and studying french, spanish, and italian.....it really hurts me when we're having dinner with other people, and they're asking me and my bro what we're going to do, and my bro is like, oh maybe a chemist or a physicist, and i'm like, i have no clue...it makes me feel like such a dumbass

i just, have trouble setting goals you know? two days ago, i promised myself i would study some chinese, then i'm like screw it, leave it till monday....then same thing happened again yestarday, i don't know what to do...

when bad thing happened, I just try not to think about it, and time ease the pain

Life is just a ride.dmc333

Welcome to the intorduction to the rest of your life, Im 23 and each year has gotten harder. You need to get over yourself and start working hard, if you feel bad your mom is spending 1000 on you a semester (which is not that much money to be given to you during college)

Some advice if your still reading. Start working out or going for walks that helps with depression. The reason you did badly on your quiz or test after studying hard is because you probably studied with negative thoughts about how the test was going to go. Trust me been there done that. You need to find some kind of physical/mental activity to take your mind of the stress and just put yourself out there. Try and break the comfort zone. I was really shy when I started school and after about 2 months I was a social butterfly and my grades got way better and I just started being more positive about it because I realized that time was going to start going faster and soon those years I should have been enjoying myself will be far in the past and I wanted something to show for it.. So I stopped being a little panzy grew up and did stuff.! You can do it to! Its alot easier than you think, you just gotta make a simple move to do it.

i can't remember the last time i was "truely" happy....i'm sad over trivial things, but i can't help it....

for one, i had a crush on this girl for 5 years...and have never really talked to her...i got lucky when i was grouped with her for a history project. i don't find myself very attractive...and in my opinion this girl is the prettiest girl i've ever seen....

another thing...my college life just sucks...i already feel bad that my mom is paying a grand a semester...and i just feel like crap. i'm suppose to be in my mandarin chinese class right now, but i just ****ing gave up. i was fed up having to learn 20 characters a week. two weeks ago i actually put in effort into studying for a quiz and only god 17.5/30....that really broke my spirit, and i just didn't give a **** anymore...

it doesn't help that my brother is a lot better than i am....i mean...he's only 16 and he's doing stuff like calculus, physics, and studying french, spanish, and italian.....it really hurts me when we're having dinner with other people, and they're asking me and my bro what we're going to do, and my bro is like, oh maybe a chemist or a physicist, and i'm like, i have no clue...it makes me feel like such a dumbass

i just, have trouble setting goals you know? two days ago, i promised myself i would study some chinese, then i'm like screw it, leave it till monday....then same thing happened again yestarday, i don't know what to do...

lonewolf604

I've been there. I'm still kinda there some days, if not most.

College does this to a lot of people. Not to belittle what you feel, just that your not alone. 

A suggestion, maybe chinse isn't the forgien language for you. I've had to drop out of 3 lanuage classes due to learning disabilites. 

Good luck. 

To the other posters, yeah life is a **** For some people though, things just hit them harder and stay with them longer. I'm like that. Its not always about "manning up" or whatever. 

your depression seems circumstantial rather than clinical. Although there is an element of truth in people saying just get over yourself and work harder, I don't think it applies in your current situation. One of the best sayings I've heard is "let yourself off the hook", stop beating yourself up over learning Chinese if you hate it - it's your life and you only get one shot at it. I'm not suggesting you ruin your relationship with your parents but it sounds like they are living their lives through you and deciding what's best for you based on what they like for themselves.

It won't always be bad. 

[QUOTE="double_decker"]Nobody is going to do it but yourself, you just have to find something you are good at and enjoy and go in that direction. Trying to please others is usually a thankless and impossible task. Just do what makes you happy, it's your life. Good like finding your way through this crappy thing we call life. :)lonewolf604