i think something messed up with my head

If you like the OT to be a place of happiness and laughing at people that fell off ladders and got hit by trains then for the love of fuzzy kittens you should go elsewhere.

Anyway I've been quite depressed lately. It's been going on for weeks and I thought I was over it during Turkey Week but then it came back : ( Lately the littlest things can ruin my day and I've given up things I liked before like playing halo 1 online because I don't find them fun and I think I fail at alot of that stuff. i'm not happy when I get even one or two wrong on a quiz or assignment at school and even if I get 0 wrong i just think "Yeah, but next time I'll get a bunch wrong." I don't find myself really worth anything and I don't think people want me around at school. Yeah, I'm quiet at school but I'm not covered in zits or really short or anything. I find myself listening to Linkin Park (yeah, most of you here hate them) especially their songs like "Numb" and "In the End." i do write about kind of sad things like betrayal and such.

Hopefully it's just a phase and will go away and I don't have to take meds or anything like that :|

Phase.

Please just work through it. Don't do anything stupid like drugs and such. Watch really funny movies. Like Knocked Up and Superbad. That'll cheer you up.

It's just a small phase during adolescence in which you become disillusioned from the pleasures of reality and you find that nothing really matters in the end and dying at any point wouldn't make a difference. Most people have been there, myself included. It might go away, and maybe it won't. It all depends on how you view the world.Blood-Scribe

Phase.

Please just work through it. Don't do anything stupid like drugs and such. Watch really funny movies. Like Knocked Up and Superbad. That'll cheer you up.Never_Fear

Agreed, it's a phase, don't worry, I went through it for 2 years though in high school, but it will go away. Try to cheer up and please don't do stupid things like hardcore drugs.

You should talk to your doctor or counselor. Im not sure but it might be a phase just like little kids go through phases of Dinosaurs and Fire trucks.

Try something that will relieve stress, it might be from the stress of work or school. A good way to do this is to watch comedy/cartoons, even if its something like Spongebob, the silliness and childness of it can relieve stress.

i dont know how old u are but could be just puberty

btw linkin park are amazing

sounds like the typical awkward teenage years where you become very self aware andsometimesdevelop a low self esteem. You'll be fine... The real world is way different then highschool or school where its just a popularity contest.

If you like the OT to be a place of happiness and laughing at people that fell off ladders and got hit by trains then for the love of fuzzy kittens you should go elsewhere.

Anyway I've been quite depressed lately. It's been going on for weeks and I thought I was over it during Turkey Week but then it came back : ( Lately the littlest things can ruin my day and I've given up things I liked before like playing halo 1 online because I don't find them fun and I think I fail at alot of that stuff. i'm not happy when I get even one or two wrong on a quiz or assignment at school and even if I get 0 wrong i just think "Yeah, but next time I'll get a bunch wrong." I don't find myself really worth anything and I don't think people want me around at school. Yeah, I'm quiet at school but I'm not covered in zits or really short or anything. I find myself listening to Linkin Park (yeah, most of you here hate them) especially their songs like "Numb" and "In the End." i do write about kind of sad things like betrayal and such.

Hopefully it's just a phase and will go away and I don't have to take meds or anything like that :|

Half-Life_man

ignore everyone who judge's you. go to Youtube.com, drink some warm sweet tea. go for a jog if you can. play video games you have never played before so you can take problems off of your mind. if you want the truth, its not as bad as you think. i got upset and depressed alot for no reason like yourself. i find that in my self alot still. i guess you can never really grow up. oh, and meds won't really do anything. i mean i have taken meds before but i soon relised that was not for me. honestly, if you get a job at the work place and work long hours. you won't have to hear your self thing so much. look for audio podcasts. do whatever you can to get a mental illness out of your mind. youtube.com has helped me think about stuff and reality alot. my mind is more like a moving rollercoaster now rather then a frozen statue. if that makes any sense. oh and listen to The Pretender by foo fighters. trust me, it could brighten up your day.

It sounds like your going through a phase. At least it better be, now wait there while I round up my posse andpolish my emo beating stick.

Wow people listened. THanks for all your comments they were helpful (most of them) and I'll just ride this out and hope that the phase passes.

PS I obligatorily listened to the song, and I never really liked the FF but that song was awesome, very fitting.