Hey, I go to a male/female High School right now. I'm a Freshman, and it's all been one absolutely horrible experience.
See, there's this female that I like, right? Well, she doesn't like me back because I'm ugly as hell, so I have no chance with her whatsoever. Now, there's this other kid that hot that she has "done stuff" with. I won't say what this "stuff" is, but I think you get it.
This just makes me uneasy. Yes, I know... I may be overreacting about this, but it hurts knowing what she does with this guy, for some odd reason. I used to think getting angry over this stuff was silly and just plain stupid, but that was when I wasn't in High School.
What sucks is my extreme obsession/attraction towards this female. I waste countless hours online waiting for this guy to come on, instead of actually doing my homework. It has really gotten out of hand. I tried to make up a reason to stop talking to her, but it failed. I'm afraid that I won't be able to get past all of this. I'll just continue thinking about her, even though nothing will ever happen.
You could say move on to another girl... Well, first of all, it's too hard to move on. Second of all, even if I did, it would be the same exact case because I am so goddamn ugly. Yes, it sucks immensly, esepcially when my older sister is so hot.
I think I am failing a few subjects right now, and there's a chance I may have to go to Summer School. I hate placing blame on people, but it's this damn girl's fault. No, it's my fault for getting so attached, but if she never existed, I would being just swell! My grades were never THAT bad in Grade School, and now I have a D in most classes, and an F in one.
I was thinking that maybe I should just go to an all boy's school. Yeah, kind of silly reason, but I think I might stop focusing on females so much. I don't know if I would see them that often on weekends. Maybe, but at least they'd be out of my head. I'm just wondering if it's okay for a human being to basically have no female contact outside family members. Would I be okay? Would I be able to function correctly?
If that's the case, then I think I might attend an all boy's school. That or I find a cure for my ugliness.
What say you?
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