So I almost killed my friend...

I'm writing here obviously worried and terrified from what happened today.

There's that guy that I'm not sure that is 100% straight, but he was talking like a lot today. I was sitting in a chair near the window in my class and was just looking around. Then that guy decided to insult me and my family. The girls are there watching. I'm insulting him too, but the *****s seems to take his side (because he hangs out only with girls). Since that I don't remember what happened. There was like a force that hit me in the head. My friends say that I've blasted off my chair and hit him with a knee in the head then started punching him in the head. Then the first thing I remember was his head between my legs and I was punching him like I want to kill him. When I realized what I do, I stood up and started excusing to the fella. I really didn't want to do it, but I did. My friend was bleeding. It was so awkward, all the girls were watching me like I just murdered the teacher. I don't know why I did it and why I don't remember nothing from the event.

Is it normal just to burst in a fury against a friendly and not to remember what actually happened? And if so, what could have actually provoked i it? I'm afraid that I might kill someone like that in the future. It was all about to defend my honor, but I didn't really wanted to hurt him so bad. And I'm usually one of these peaceful guys, that tend not to have any problems and to be friend with everybody. :?

I suggest you seek help and hope you don't get arrested if this story is true.

I suggest you seek help and hope you don't get arrested if this story is true.

Pirate700

^You know, this is one of the first times I've agreed with Pirate, so I think you should take this advice.

Get. Help.

It sounds you have a lot of pent up anger. It is not normal to "blackout" and beat someone with the intention of killing them because they insult you.

There was like a force that hit me in the head.Crimsader

This interests me, could you elaborate?

I read this twice and have no idea what happened other than you hit the guy when his head was between your legs.clayron

A flying knee to the head? I think you should seek some help if you dont get arrested because that is pretty intense.

So...the guy that was insulting you and your family was your friend? Your post is confusing.

But yes, get help. Uncontrollable rage like that is not good at all.

If you have bursts of rage like that, that cause amnesia, you might need some help.

Well I don't live in America so it's impossible to get arrested just for beating someone up. Yes, I'm going to go visit the psychiatrist in Monday... Seems like it. T_P_O - Like someone hits you with a soccer ball in the head and you don't know what's going on. Do you know what can cause this? :?Crimsader

What country do you live in where it is ok to beat someone?

might be all the things you have had bottled up inside, if you are an overly kind person, or maybe a beginning personality disorder that is showing its face.

Anyhow I would advice for a checkup atleast... The reaction seemed somewhat on the extreme side, but reasons may be numorous (right down to eating habits infact), so get a checkup, both physical and mental.

[QUOTE="T_P_O"][QUOTE="Crimsader"]T_P_O - Like someone hits you with a soccer ball in the head and you don't know what's going on. Do you know what can cause this? :?xaos

For the naughty boys - the head between the legs is done when you want to kill somebody, if you don't know. I didn't really wanted to do it tho.

I can kill a policeman and live fine after it here... Crimsader

[QUOTE="Crimsader"]Well I don't live in America so it's impossible to get arrested just for beating someone up. Yes, I'm going to go visit the psychiatrist in Monday... Seems like it. T_P_O - Like someone hits you with a soccer ball in the head and you don't know what's going on. Do you know what can cause this? :?Atmanix

What country do you live in where it is ok to beat someone?

Well he's not straight, that is common fact. I was friend with him tho, but not anymore - so "that" guy". For the naughty boys - the head between the legs is done when you want to kill somebody, if you don't know. I didn't really wanted to do it tho. And no, the police won't be even interested in my case here, so turn this option off. I can kill a policeman and live fine after it here... But yeah, I think I might have some disorder too.Crimsader

Seriously.. name of your country so I know never to visit.

[QUOTE="Atmanix"]

[QUOTE="Crimsader"]Well I don't live in America so it's impossible to get arrested just for beating someone up. Yes, I'm going to go visit the psychiatrist in Monday... Seems like it. T_P_O - Like someone hits you with a soccer ball in the head and you don't know what's going on. Do you know what can cause this? :?clayron

What country do you live in where it is ok to beat someone?

Indeed :D The country doesn't defend me so I have to defend myself :lol: C'mon don't change the topic :)

[QUOTE="clayron"][QUOTE="Atmanix"]

What country do you live in where it is ok to beat someone?

Crimsader

Indeed :D The country doesn't defend me so I have to defend myself :lol: C'mon don't change the topic :)

What? If somebody attacks you in the USA, you'll just stand up and let him hit you, because if you retaliate you'll go to the court?Crimsader

There is a difference between self-defense and almost killing someone because they called you a name.

What? If somebody attacks you in the USA, you'll just stand up and let him hit you, because if you retaliate you'll go to the court?Crimsader

What? If somebody attacks you in the USA, you'll just stand up and let him hit you, because if you retaliate you'll go to the court?Crimsader

I know. It's a load of crap.

[QUOTE="Crimsader"]What? If somebody attacks you in the USA, you'll just stand up and let him hit you, because if you retaliate you'll go to the court?Necrifer

I know. It's a load of crap.

[QUOTE="Crimsader"]For the naughty boys - the head between the legs is done when you want to kill somebody, if you don't know. I didn't really wanted to do it tho.

I can kill a policeman and live fine after it here... Jandurin

[QUOTE="Dylan_11"]I find it odd that they have schools and the internet where you are if you can kill a policeman and still "be fine".Crimsader

[QUOTE="Jandurin"][QUOTE="Crimsader"]For the naughty boys - the head between the legs is done when you want to kill somebody, if you don't know. I didn't really wanted to do it tho.

I can kill a policeman and live fine after it here... clayron

[QUOTE="Crimsader"][QUOTE="Dylan_11"]I find it odd that they have schools and the internet where you are if you can kill a policeman and still "be fine".Dylan_11

My ex would do the same thing basically to me. I would set him off on accident.. just a general argument and he would get ragefully pissed, and then i would end up getting held against a wall, being choked and almost passing out. He would come to, let me go, and I would lock myself in the bedroom for a while. His doctors say that occured because of PTSD. He goes to therapy every day, and is medicated now, which has toned it down a lot, but theres still the chance of a snap. I suggest you see a doctor, and explain what happened, and how you don't remember. Chances are, you can get treated and wont do it again, or can undergo Anger Management classes. They are nothing to be ashamed of attending, cause your trying to become a better person.

Whatever route you take, I hope you do get the help you need, because you seem like you are scared, and want the help.

Finish Him! :twisted:

Lol you should have your own fighting game.

I joke but yeh maybe talk to your doctor about that!

How is it his head was near your crotch? Also, were you blatantly attacking him to defend your honor or did you really black out?

How is it his head near your crotch? Also, were you blatantly attacking him to defend your honor or did you really black out?

ex-mortis