What are you afraid of? (on a deeper level)

Failure

Loneliness

Meeting new people (I'm well aware of the irony)

My own paranoia

Confrontations

Criticisms

Being ignored

And many more. I'm a bit messed up.

Failure

Loneliness

Meeting new people (I'm well aware of the irony)

My own paranoia

Confrontations

Criticisms

Being ignored

And many more. I'm a bit messed up.

pengo93

Heights. I'm deathly afraid of heights.

[QUOTE="pengo93"]

Failure

Loneliness

Meeting new people (I'm well aware of the irony)

My own paranoia

Confrontations

Criticisms

Being ignored

And many more. I'm a bit messed up.

leonard88

We're twins!

Melodramatic rant:

Much like you, the idea of failure terrifies me. I'd feel like a disappointment and loser to not only myself, but everyone else. "Success" has been emphasized a lot ever since I was young, and I feel a lot of pressure at times. I do fail though, we all do. It doesn't help my self-esteem with that certain perspective. I must say, it's gotten much better as I've grown older though.

I get really paranoid about certain things. I wonder if some of the decisions I'm making now will actually help me later, or if I'm just missing out. Or the opposite. Are the decisions I'm making now setting me up for disaster? That leads me to be indecisive at times.

I'm afraid of most intimate relationships as well. I can get over that wall eventually, it just takes time. I like to say that "I may be alone, but I'm not lonely". In all honesty though, I am afraid that I may just wind up both alone AND lonely. What if I push too many people away?

Lastly, losing someone I truly love. It's hard to imagine how things would be without one of my parents or something.

These may seem like petty fears, but they are on a "deeper" level, which is what the title stated. They're not rare or extreme in my case or anything, I know that.

Melodramatic rant:

Much like you, the idea of failure terrifies me. I'd feel like a disappointment and loser to not only myself, but everyone else. "Success" has been emphasized a lot ever since I was young, and I do feel a lot of pressure at times. I do fail though, we all do at times. It doesn't help my self-esteem. It's gotten better as I've grown older though.

I get really paranoid about certain things. I wonder if some of the decisions I'm making now will actually help me later, or if I'm just missing out. Or the opposite. Are the decisions I'm making now setting me up for disaster?

I'm afraid of most intimate relationships as well. I can get over that wall eventually, it just takes time. I like to say that "I may be alone, but I'm not lonely". In all honesty though, I am afraid that I may just wind up both alone AND lonely. What if I push too many people away?

Lastly, losing someone I truly love. It's hard to imagine how things would be without one of my parents or something.

These may seem like petty fears, but they are on a "deeper" level, which is what the title stated. They're not rare or extreme in my case or anything, I know that.

Suzy_Q_Kazoo

Failure

Loneliness

Meeting new people (I'm well aware of the irony)

My own paranoia

Confrontations

Criticisms

Being ignored

And many more. I'm a bit messed up.

pengo93

Mods.Head_of_games

Growing up

I am very afraid that in a few days time when I get Black Ops my internet will screw up and have massive ping like it's doing a lot right now. JasonDarksavior

It will be for your own good.

That when I'm old I'll look back at my life and feel regret.

The only things I am really afraid of are cancer, devastating/debilitating car crashes, and being a tool to the dog-eat-dog Capitalist Engine.

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[QUOTE="Head_of_games"]Mods.Darthkaiser

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Melodramatic rant:

Much like you, the idea of failure terrifies me. I'd feel like a disappointment and loser to not only myself, but everyone else. "Success" has been emphasized a lot ever since I was young, and I feel a lot of pressure at times. I do fail though, we all do. It doesn't help my self-esteem with that certain perspective. I must say, it's gotten much better as I've grown older though.

I get really paranoid about certain things. I wonder if some of the decisions I'm making now will actually help me later, or if I'm just missing out. Or the opposite. Are the decisions I'm making now setting me up for disaster? That leads me to be indecisive at times.

I'm afraid of most intimate relationships as well. I can get over that wall eventually, it just takes time. I like to say that "I may be alone, but I'm not lonely". In all honesty though, I am afraid that I may just wind up both alone AND lonely. What if I push too many people away?

Lastly, losing someone I truly love. It's hard to imagine how things would be without one of my parents or something.

These may seem like petty fears, but they are on a "deeper" level, which is what the title stated. They're not rare or extreme in my case or anything, I know that.

Suzy_Q_Kazoo

Looking like a fool in front of certain people. I do fine on my own, for the most part. But, I get very anxious around people I've known for a long time.

*skims through messages*

tl;dr - You are an awesome person.4dinfinitum

Oh thanks. =D

Looking like a fool in front of certain people. I do fine on my own, for the most part. But, I get very anxious around people I've known for a long time.

*skims through messages*

[QUOTE="4dinfinitum"] tl;dr - You are an awesome person.Baconbits2004

Oh thanks. =D

I used to have a crippling fear of failure, but therapy helped a lot... enough to the point where I kind of shot to the opposite extreme and became relatively lazy in everything. :lol: But the "deepest" fear I have currently is probably of my own mind. It's not like a constant fear or threat of going crazy, but I have a history of snapping when given enough reason to. Every description of it is that I become someone totally different, and I never remember any of it. Nothing violent in a physical sense, but they've all said they get this sudden sense of evilness off me and even my voice changes. Just really freaked out by it, I guess.SeraphimGoddess

Have you seen the local exorcist? You might have eaten something that wasn't cooked properly and contracted a demon.

But seriously, what triggers this?

What I'm starting to notice is that as life gets tougher, I start to accept my failures more. People say not to compare yourself to others, but that is simply impossible. We model ourselves after other people. So when I look at what I'm capable of (in school, work, relationships), I try to always improve but at the same time I keep in mind that I don't have to live up to someone else's standards. I've gotten to a point where I pretty much believe, truly believe, that my life is better than anyone elses because, even though I continually try to improve, I am happy with myself. I'm not sure if that made sense at all.. hah. Talking about this kind of stuff is really difficult. tl;dr - You are an awesome person.4dinfinitum

No, no. It certainly makes sense to me. It is. Last time I posted something that was borderline emotionally personal, I ended up deleting it within minutes :lol:

Say what now? :P

Have you seen the local exorcist? You might have eaten something that wasn't cooked properly and contracted a demon.

But seriously, what triggers this?

pengo93

Really? That's interesting. Usually people are anxious around people they don't know... unless they're tipsy or something. Family members are a different story. You know your parents all your life, yet you always have to be en garde when they're around.4dinfinitum

Yeah, parents, siblings, relatives, long-term friends... after a while I start to fill with self-doubt.
Things are easy in the beginning of relationships, there's less pressure because they don't know me very well.

After I get 'attached' that's when the problems start. >_>

[QUOTE="pengo93"]

Have you seen the local exorcist? You might have eaten something that wasn't cooked properly and contracted a demon.

But seriously, what triggers this?

SeraphimGoddess

That is strange.. This may sound like an obvious solution, but you should probably tune out bad situations.

That is strange.. This may sound like an obvious solution, but you should probably tune out bad situations.

pengo93

Unkown. Like if I was on a boat in the ocean and I looked over the edge there could be something right under the surface of the murky water, I don't care about the dark. Nighttime is just the same as the daytime, except the sun is on the other side of the earth. I just don't like not knowing what is below that water. If I fell into clear water I would feel more secure because I know what is around me. But if I fall into darker water I would hate it because I wouldn't know what could pop out or what creature could lie beneath.

death. mainly the unknown of what happens after. the biggest fear is that nothing happens. you just cease to exist.

death. mainly the unknown of what happens after. the biggest fear is that nothing happens. you just cease to exist.

lostfan132

Probably letting someone down is my deepest fear. Perhaps saying the wrong things and destroying friendships.. etc..

I'm afraid of nothingness; I just can't get over the thought that my conciousness will cease to exist after I die. It just freaks me out thinking that "me" will just disconnect and be no more, which is why I've given up thinking about it; I'd rather just enjoy the time I have here and worry about death later.

I'm afraid of nothingness; I just can't get over the thought that my conciousness will cease to exist after I die. It just freaks me out thinking that "me" will just disconnect and be no more, which is why I've given up thinking about it; I'd rather just enjoy the time I have here and worry about death later.

black_cat19

please don't worry bout death.

[QUOTE="lostfan132"]

death. mainly the unknown of what happens after. the biggest fear is that nothing happens. you just cease to exist.

Tylendal

I wouldn't notice once it happens, but right now the thought is unbearable; I don't want to disappear. I'm not afraid of dying as in "my body shutting down and decomposing", but I don't want my conciousness to go away, I don't want "me" to cease to exist. I honestly couldn't care less if there's a heaven or hell, if people become ghosts, or if living things reincarnate; I just don't want to lose this personality, these particular ideas and points of view, all the things that make me who I am and differenciate me from everyone else.

Even if I reincarnated, but was a different person and had no memory of who I used to be, that would be the same as death to me, because the one typing this right now would be gone.

Not having a purpose. Still haven't found one.