kind of a long story, but it was the day I "graduated"
basically, college graduation is for everyone but the student. It is mostly for your parents, so they can feel proud and hope for grandchildren soon and a high paying job for their son.
So, when graduation came and I walked, I told my parents "Well, actually, I am going to have to take one more class this summer, then I will be done"
My mom flipped out, went completely ballistic. Then came my retaliation, and eventually I told her how I had been depressed ever snce going to college and that I felt like I didnt really belong there and that I didnt even know what to do with my life, which is why my performance was so poor at school.
She said "Oh youre going to have to send yoru grad gifts back" and "Dont you care what people think? Oh god I am so embaressed".
To which I replied "Well damn its only school, I am going to get my degree, only it will take 3 more months" and "No, I dont really care what the people you work with think about me".
Apparently I went to college to turn into a sheep, a conformist to society...not to gain my independence and become a borderline money-loathing anarchist.
I felt guilty about it for a long, long time and college itself was a very stressful time for me. The whole concept of college is essentially ruined for me and any kids I havebecause A.) I think college is for those who know what they want, and you should definately notgo because you can, and B.) I thought college was about learning and stuff, not memorizing and performance.
Excluding my first two years at college, the following three years and that day of my "graduation" was the worst emotional time for me.
/end emo rant
*yes, I know how this makes me sound. Spoiled, privelaged, and ungrateful. Well, I paid for my schooling, well like 90% of it.
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