it's a dream
with a nightmare stuck in the middle
but where would you be
without all of that attention

The simple solutions are always the best. Sometimes it is high time to stop lying and stop being a hostage.

I like your conversation, you ve a catchy turn of phrase

You re obviously going through some adolescent phase.

http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=HOskLZ-w3RA&NR=1

http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=RokXA-ZkH7A&feature=channel

Catchy vids for 2008 but in 2009 we will be watching something else.

http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=C8IQlax-egE

Doesnt it pay to fight to feel alive again. All the things come your way then. I wish I thought about it back then. Before I allowed it all to turn me apart. Life is not fair. Thats true. But its over me. I dont have to go through all of it anymore. I just wont. It s now to make things right or never. In practise it means never. Thats why I know I am right.

The movies:

Neverending story.

Das Leben der Anderen.

The Others.

Circumstances.

Misfits.

Kramer vs. Kramer.

Bella Martha.

The Girl in His House.

In Flames Used & Abused.

Another Scandal.

Kid.

The things I cannot change.

Crowded House.

One Too Many.

I haven't been to New York yet. Is that the reason why I thought that Sex and the City was another shallow show about the woman and girls who need a men to make them whole.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NxTgK29qRCo

I can have fun as well and try Carrie Bradshow's way of life. I would like to also have a kind of family one day. Perhaps a kid. Who knows. I don't have to be where I am because I have feelings and I used to believe in idealistic stuff.

Some decisions break our hearts but we know we have to make them to be able to go on. Each of us is the independent Universe. Wishing and hoping is nice. Just like dreams and fantasies. But the real life is what we have every day. It inspires us or kills us. Nobody wants to be bitter and lick the life of the others through the glass. Asking somebody to live like this is selfish and cruel. And it has nothing to do with love or friendship. But it is hard to stop lying to ourselves when we are in love. Up to the moment when you tell yourself: ENOUGH. I did.

There are thousand things that I will never be no matter how hard I'll try. But there are at least a few that I can be. And I can make it alone. But I like company. That's what I need in my real life. It is important to me to share my successes and flops, views and dreams. And it is also important to participate in successes and flops, views and dreams of the other person. That's the way I am. And I don't have to change in order to deserve to be happy.

I am Big Madchen now and I understand that people differ. So the other people may need something else and does not have to like what I need.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3yDUSMpLLE

I don't want to beg or force anyone to be with me. I need somebody who will need to hold me close as much as I need somebody to hold me now. And it has nothing to do with sex.

I can understand a lot even the addiction to games and internet. I guess it is hard to get out of all of it. But I believe that Neverland is good for people that have no choice. And I know that the beggars cannot be the choosers. So I will never be the one in my life. I wanna live.

Hello,

I am here in the cyber bar. :) IN THE BAR or AT THE BAR? :oops:

They gave me the computer crap.

Tomorrow I will try to get the better one.

ERICA/ERIKA:P

Hello,

I have only 2 minutes left in cyber bar.

Goodnight:roll:

GUTE NACHT.

ERIKA

Hello,

MATURITY is a new English word that I learnt today. I turned 18 y.o.!!!!! :shock:

It was a very nice day. It started with Frustuck (Breakfast) in my bed :P. I received flowers and gifts from entire family.:). My boyfriend didn't come to my birthday party. :cry:

I didn't watch ALL FOR LOVE http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifxRo4i1veE.

And I will never see ALL FOR LOVE. My boy friend sent me SMS an hour ago. He left me. Not first time.

ALLES GUTE ZUM GEBURTSTAG ERIKA...