just got home from florida... which was great. i got to spend time with friends that i haven't seen in a while and also... Aiden's family.

God i miss him so much. I can't believe its already been over five months ago that he died.
and i think about him everyday.

I spent the whole day yesterday with his family and we all just went on a walk and talked about him and all of the good memories that we had with him. And surprisingly, I didn't cry...
Until after I heard one of his little sisters (who's 7) start to talk. She said that even when he was growing up, he was still the annoying big brother that he had always been and that he would tease her all the time and get on her nerves so much... and she misses that. She said sometimes she can still hear some of the crazy things he says and she can't help but laugh. She told me that he also talked about me a lot and how it was so great to be my best friend.

That was the most heart-breaking but touching thing that I have ever heard from a seven-year-old.

Aiden boy, we all miss you so much. Your mom let me sleep in your room last night because its the only place that I feel really close to you. She also gave me one of your t-shirts from your closet.... im wearing it right now. Well, i love you so much kiddo. You are my best friend in the entire world.

Sorry, I know its a depressing entry. But it's just something I felt like i needed to write out.

I hope that everyone isstaying safe this summer

~Rylie