... empty. I feel lost. I feel lonely. I feel tired. I just want to fall asleep... at least there my dreams come true. At least there, I feel safe, secure, happy...loved.
Love... why does is have to be so darn complicated? Why can't people just say what they feel and not do and say things that make other people think things that aren't true?
I say this because I found out that Daniel actually doesn't feel the same way I do about him. He likes somebody else... And I found out because two of my friends told me... They say that he said that he doesn't have the courage to talk to me about it. Since Monday he's been avoiding me... He told them that he doesn't like me that way, but I don't understand... What about all of those hugs? The times we would tell each things we never told anybody else? The laughs, the private jokes, the teasing, the stories, the times we just would stare at each other, the time we held hands...? What about all of that? Did I misinterpret everything? Was he playing with my feelings? Oh, I feel so lost.
Should I cry and forget him? Should I pretend nothing ever happened? What happens if this affects our friendship? I know nobody can answer these questions except time but I have this feeling in my stomach... this "knot" I feel every time I see or think of him... now I know what people mean when they say love hurts.
Lets see what happens from here on. Until, one day... *
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