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I can't remember to forget you

These six said it all.

I've just watched Memento. First I had the only intention of finding Jorja in it, be glad that she's great and finish off with the rest as soon as possible. However, it's not just Jorja that is great about this movie. The movie itself is great, in a strange sense of the word.
You can't possibly enjoy it while watching. The whole topic of the story makes it impossible for the audience to relax. You have to listen to every little detail to follow the storyline, you have to connect the dots for yourself. In the very first minutes you realize that the only way to catch up with the main character's story is to study the events backwards in time.
The only thing you can be sure of is that this guy had a surgery (you've got (and actually he's got) no idea when exactly) and from then on he's lost his short term memory. He can remember the things that happened before the operation but nothing that happened after it. So he has to create a system that works. He's convinced that his wife (Jorja) was raped and murdered by a guy called John G. His only intention is to take revenge on him no matter what. He slowly finds out about some details and in order to keep the facts together he has a tattoo of each of them on his body.
At the end the whole story becomes a big mess. There are several possibilities and you've got to choose which one to believe. Maybe it was he himself who killed his wife, or maybe his wife died because of her diabetes or maybe John G. was indeed the murderer.
However, the idea is perfect alone, it's not the story that makes this movie so special. It's rather the fact that you can't just move on after watching. You can't just turn off the TV and go to bed.
The movie shows that how defenceless and weak a man becomes when he has no short term memory. And actually how all the other people use him for their own purposes. How desperate a man can be to try and solve a puzzle that cannot be solved. How a man who has no recent memories suffers from the memories he has from the past. How a man can fight for his long ago forgotten life.
And time by time for just seconds you can see a smiling and beautiful Jorja, the wife who was probably the only one this guy has ever loved. And from all his memories she's the only one who cannot ever be forgotten. No matter how hard he tries. And in the scene where he burns her stuff and says 'Probably I tried this before. Probably burned truck loads of your stuff. I can't remember to forget you' - you just find your heart broken. He can be reminded of everything by those little notes. Everything, except this. He can't remember to forget her. And in the same time it's both desperately sad and beautifully touching.
For all the 109 minutes of the movie you just wish to see them together. Somehow, somewhere, sometime. And it leaves an incredibly huge space behind. And deep inside you know that it is the way it had to be done. And this paradox made of love and pain makes you move and hold on no matter how hard it is.

You can just feel the details. The bits and pieces you never bothered to put into words. And you can feel these extreme moments... even if you don't want to. You put these together, and you get the feel of a person. Enough to know how much you miss them...