artisticmusic: Drive - Ziggy Marley
Things are really weird in my life. Let's check:
Now that I am totally disappointed with Big Blond, the crush I once had for him is back full force. How can this happen ? Seems like the mind plays tricks with the heart - makes me think again all the time about someone who clearly had no consideration for me. It is what we call being the bad-guy girl - like to be mistreated. One thing I have to say in his behalf - he is acting as if he had no idea what he has done. Treating me like I were the most important person in the entire life. Even dirty jokes he is now making, and explaining the bad Norwegian word (thank you Marie for the embarrassment !!!) so cute that he made me laugh for hours... Then what is it? Perhaps he is really innocent - the Prime Minister told him she would talk to me and take care of everything and simply stole my project. The fact is that she is going to get screwed because she has no guts and no the firmness required for this. And I will be far away just listening to all the gossip in first hand. Anyway, I had this dream with him. Me and him making out like hell. Never happened before, nor even in the crushiest time of all times - I am not the kind of person who dreams about this. The dreams come when I am fully awake and imagination at full speed. But this time, I dreamed of us making out and I do mean it !!! So out that next morning I could still feel his lips in mine, besides his many other things... Ahem... Naughty, dirty Luciana !!!! The point is - I do have to get prepared for leaving. But as I said to Frau V, I will ask him out as the last act of my mandato. Changing subjects, this is my last vacation week. Feb 12 is the starting day for the semester. I am totally focused on this. Studying hard, but nervous as hell about the whole thing. Four year since I did the last test, attended the last class. Such a long time ... But it is ok, this knot in my stomach makes me feel alive again... The HD finally died. Had to buy a new one, which is working perfectly. Many files and links and favorites lost, all the songs, couple of pictures, but it is ok... Will be funny trying to get everything in order again. Handfull but funny... Now the kids are ranting about me taking over the computer since it arrived back from hospital. Just posting and then going to bed. Will be back tomorrow for sure... 
