I can't effing stand my mom. She's so effin annoying. First off, she knew how important Danny is to me, and so when I asked her if I could watch the news eppis, she said yes. Oh! And get this: now, I'm not even allowed to watch them. I'm not allowed to watch any TV during the summer. Even though I've already seen the epis before, I'm still fukking upset. First I'm not allowed to watch TV during the school year, but durring the summer?! WTF iswrong with her?! Oh! Also, she cancelled all my recordings of the epis and deleted the ones that were already recorded. She also took away my iPod (which I just fixed) and my phone, just because I don't answer my phone the million times that she calls. I mean, seriously,who would answer every single time? I'm seriously considering of running away from this freaking hellhole. I want to go live with my stepmom so badly now! Thing is, she lives in Seattle. How the hell am I gonna get to Seattle? Augh!!!!!!!!!!!

Another thing, she thinks that I'm supposed to act like I'm a perfect little angel all the time. Just because Zip and Mickeh were perfect daughters, doesn't mean that I have to! Right? Okay, so I'm kinda a PMS Queen, but that's only because of these effin hormones. LOL. Teenage girls usually have mood swings! Also, she drags me to therapy, everytime I act up. She thinks that it's because of some OCD-related problem. My problem is her!

Also, another reason why I hate my mom is because she fukking compares me to everyone. "Oh! Look at her! She's so skinny! Why can't you work out a little more?" "Look at Elana! Do you think she sits on her @$$ all day? No! She studies and runs everyday!" "You know why you're so forgetfull? Because you're fukking lazy! Do you think Amber is lazy? No! She works hard for everything!" God! You see what I mean? Also, she says to me all the time "Well, why don't you go fukking go live with your father?! If it's so wonderful there! You stupid piece of $#!t." Yeah, she does actually say that sometimes. I know you're all gonna say that this is child abuse, but I've dealt with this a lot of times in the past. It's just something that's grown onto me. I hate it. Writing, drawing, watching Danny or Gilmore Girls, making vids or singing are my ways of escaping all of this. That's why I'm always doing one or the other. Well, now you know.

One last thing: there are some days that I felt so upset because this that I wanted to die so badly. Just so I can be rid of her. I'm not a bad kid. I'm a teenager. Teens aren't perfect. Heck, nobody's perfect. Just like Hannah says "Nobody's perfect/ I gotta work it/ Again and again, 'till I get it right/ Nobody's Perfect/ You live and you learn it/ And if I mess it up sometimes/Nobody's Perfect." Right?

Thanks for listening. You've all been really great. :)