I know this is a sore subject but I seriously want to know your take on them. It's just that I've always said to myself if I get pregnant as a teenager I'd never have an abortion, having a kid wouldn't be so bad. But now the more I think about it, the more I think I'd definitely want an abortion. I'm not pregnant, but it's just been on my mind. I could NEVER in a million years EVER give a child up for adoption (where is he/she now? Is he/she okay? Does he/she know about me? Does he/she want to meet me? Is he/she living a better life I could ever give them? Can I go find them? You get it...) but my life is as amazing as it can get right now and I don't want a child who will fuuck it up. I've been working for a six pack and I'm getting there. I also drink and party a lot, am I ready to give that up? I'm doing so well in school and I'm thinking about college and I'm excited for it. I'm starting to play soccer again and I use to be really good and I'm going to take up my WAGS division team which has three practices a week and two games sometimes. A kid will ruin all this for me. I'm on the pill so I shouldn't be worried, but I am because I don't take birth control all the time because when I'm angry taking my medications for my disorder I just don't take any pills at all. This happens often. Then there is the fact that I'm scared to have an abortion because I am bipolar and I know coping with be 100 times worse for me. I'll be in therapy for weeks straight. I don't know but this subject just hit me and I want to be ready. Any thoughts? Sincerely yours, Miserable Dizzy.