Okay, finally after what seems like FOREVER, Grey's is returning... for one episode! That's right, one episode of pure pain! (Or so the spoilers say). I, being a 100% Mer/Der fan, can't even decide if I want to watch this episode. I mean, come on! Sure, it's good drama, but seriously? Meredith and Derek... after everything they've been through together? The chase, the wife, the being called a whore, the exam room sex, the consequences, Burke and Cristina troubles, chief problems, death, and a non-wedding. They should be together. Everyone knows it! It will happen, that's for sure, but why not now? I mean, what's in the way? Everything has been sorted. All their is, is just a stalking nurse who can be told off, no problem. This is just stupid unnessesary drama that is killing just a little bit of every Mer/Der fan inside. This upcoming episode ends with Derek being a total tool. I would watch it no problem if I knew their was more to watch. But this is the last episode until what? April did they say? Doesn't matter, the point is this stupid strike is making fans like me go AWOL. If the writers think I can handle this as my season finale, they obviously didn't see me after the season 3 finale. Sure, maybe I just had a bad week, but I believe it was that stupid depression caused from that stupid Meredith because of that hypocrite Derek. Speaking of Derek, why is he being a freakin' weirdo right now? Sure, he's old and just wants to settle down but... I mean, come on, you don't say things like "I wanna marry you" and stuff and then end off (that amazingly awsome speech) saying "But what if I do meet someone who is ready to give me what I want from you?". Well then DOCTOR SHEPHERD, you obviously don't care about her as much as you say... AND YOU ACTUALLY DO. The stupid scrub nurse is brainwashing him. He is seriously getting on my nerves. He doesn't deserve Meredith... unfortunately I can't live life unless they are together... Which sucks for me.

And how many times did I use the word stupid?

Back to the episode. Bailey's son comes in and, from the sneek peak on youtube, when she tries to get in on his surgery to hold his hand, Cristina comes in and says, "Yo, I'll hold it." Okay, she doesn't say those exact words because... have we ever heard Cristina say yo? But come on, it's Cristina. She was all rebelish, smart, obnoxious, stubborn, and... everything Cristina-y at the beginning of the series. But then she met Burke. And he changed her. He changed her so she would be fit to be his wife. It happened very slowly, but in the end, he did change her. Which is the reason he left her at the altar in the season 3 finale. And now, Burke is gone and she's still changing. How? What?...What? This may just be that she can't change back to her old self as fast as she wants to, or maybe she is slowly still changing. She did have a good original Cristina moment back in Episode 4.03 Let the Truth Sting, which was cut short by her telling Meredith that she is 'dealing' with the Burke problem. I'm not gonna lie, I miss the Cristina who drinks every night at Joe's and picks up a guy to sleep with. Sure it's more Meredith's 'thing' but it seems like a very Cristina-y thing to do... Maybe not a season 3 or 4 Cristina thing, but definitly before she met Burke. Burke ruined Cristina. Preston Burke ruined Cristina Yang. Their's no denying it. I miss Cristina. Everyone has a soft side, but hers is showing way to often now-a-days.

Thus leaves the question, will I even bother to watch this episode? I don't know if I want to be left wondering what's going to happen next with Meredith, Derek, Rose, Bailey, her husband, her son, everything. But I may just watch it because I love the show. I've seen every episode thus far, why stop now? It wouldn't be like I'd never see it. I'd definitly just wait until more came. So I haven't decided yet. Watch a great show and see how it ends up, or forget it, go for walk and see you next season McDreamy!