I was feeling emotional at the time of the last blog I've written. I also had notice that I was mainly using tv.com for only my blogs and reading other blogs and not posting on the forums. Although I do post on forums, just not as much. I don't watch too much tv. Well, I do love music...

I guess I'll stay.

I like to think that I'm about to work, starting in October. What if I don't? Then I'll never be succeful in life! Something that hovers in my head like 24/7. Very stressful. My aunt believes in me and she is wanting to help me begin working where she's working at. She says it's easy, I don't know. I feel like I'm not ready.

Well, my story isn't doing well or maybe it's me. I question myself "Is it worth it?" I mean, I don't think I can get this story published becuase of the characters I'm using. I need to talk to my aunt about this. This is the only thing that's keeping me on a straight path to life. Without it, I wouldn't know what to do. It's like all this time I've missed out on things becuase of this story. If I quit on it, It would be like a prisoner coming out of prison after 60 years. I wouldn't know what to look for.

Another thing to worry is my future career. Dosen't look like it's going to happen or happen any time soon.

Okay, right now I'm working on my book and looking forward for that job. At the sametime, my aunt is also teaching me how to drive which is going to take awhile for me to learn. I really don't care for college, I hate school so much, but I'm looking into it. It will be at Austin Community College, something quick and cheep. That is my goal right now.

On Saturday, my aunt to me to a place call Terra Toys. Wow! I thought it was awesome, it was a very cool place. Bought three things: a pair of ear rings, a note book, and a little drummer panda robot looking thing (bought it becuase it looked like the same panda drumming on Fridays on CN).

Afterwards, we went to the Alamo Drafthouse to watch Little Miss Sunshine.  I loved the movie! I cryed becuase it had meaning in it. My aunt did to but it was also so funny. Awesome movie, my favorite movie right now!

We had fun which was what my aunt wanted my brother and I to have. I feel like she's trying to help with my self-esteem and convedence. It's working.

Okay, this next paragraph is going to sound weird: Or maybe not, that I was craving a MAN! I am at the age where I can get married and have kids. My mom and dad had me when they were 20 and they are still inlove at the moment, no signs of devorse. I kinda wish I was loved by a man. It's so romantic. I'm never out of my house so I'm never meeting new people. Sucks.

Other news, my fish looks like it's about to kick the bucket. My poor fish, he's a betta fish but still! He's name was Mr. Bubbles. I have him in a smaller cage just in case. He just lays around and not swim as much. He did ate today but not as much.

I also heard that the CGI Movie of Astro Boy will start showing in 2009.

Well, that's about it. I'm staying.