And I don't know when to take them actually. I asked my girlfriend when was she going to take them. She didn't know yet though. But then again, even if we both take our vacations together, it's not like I'm going to be at her house or she's going to be at my house anyway. Her parents remember? I don't want to tell her that though because it will just start an argument. I'm deciding on when I should take my days off though. Maybe the week of 4th of July? Or I was thinking about saving it all the way until Christmas instead. That way I can take 2 weeks off. Whatever, I have plenty of time to think about it. I can't believe it's Thursday already. Time goes by so quick. I remember when my days used to go so slow back in middle school. That was years ago. I always used to think, what would I look like, or where would I be at 25? Now I know. The time has caught up to me and all those thoughts from the past have come to haunt me now. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and do things differently. But won't that be regretting my life? I don't know. I just miss when life was so easy. My problems were getting my homework done, my parents were together. I didn't have to worry about a car bill, light bill, water bill, gas, food, credit card, phone, cellular. Gosh that's like I spend 1,500 a month on bills. And I don't even have enough money for myself sometimes. Not only that, when you overdraft from your bank account they charge you 33 bucks for spending 1 dollar that you didn't have. So imagine like 5 overdraft fees for 5 transactions of 2 dollars each? You just owed the bank more than 120 bucks. And they'll make sure they get your money, because I have direct deposit. No wonder the bible said money is the root of all evil. It is, it's a tool we use to survive. It's a conspiracy I say! Oh, and thanks for the Superman link Rubenlb.

I can't wait to see at least a small teaser for it. I hope it's as good as all other comic book movies that have come out. I hope better. Because he is my favorite hero out of all others. Anyway, I'm so hungry, I think I should order a pizza with lots of pepperoni, mushrooms and stuffed crust! I like Pizza Hut better than Dominoes. I think it's because of Dominoe's bread. It tastes nasty to me. The crust. I wanted to go to my girlfriend's house today, and she said that her dad is angry...so I can't even go see her. What a rip off. I'm tired of her parents taking control of her life. I wish I could do something about it other than getting married to her or taking her away like that. Why don't her parents understand that she is young and she is smart enough to make her own decisions in life? They are the old fashioned type of people. Not to offend any of you, but her parents are like in their 60's and she's the youngest in her family. They are the "traditional" type of people that have to know every part of your historical background and future that you have planned. I'm sorry, but it's the year 2005 and counting. We aren't back in the 50's anymore and they have to realize that if they keep stressing her and me out...something is going to happen that they won't like.

I am wondering. I have three hundred dollars in my pocket. I need tank tops, I need socks and more white undershirts...I want Devil May Cry 3. I want to buy some movies too. I need to take my girlfriend out to eat and to get her something nice. I want to buy paper, markers, color pencils and other things as well. But I only have 300 bucks and that isn't enough for everything that I want. I also need a tune up on my car. Or maybe I should save the money to buy some cool computer stuff? Or should I save it to pay off some other bills that I have? I don't know. Money comes and goes, but I sweat for it. And I have to go to work everyday for it. I hate money. I wish everything was free. Like water and dirt. Okay, see you guys later!

Yes, two days ago...I was finishing up the final touches of my new kitchen. I've been remodeling my restroom and kitchen and living room and every room has a phone line. So...I removed the kitchen wall with the phone jack plugged in and when I was installing the new lamps at the top, I had to go through the attic to make a whole in the ceiling. Anyhow, on my way crawling to the kitchen area in the attic...I accidently stepped on the phone line cord with my knee. And since it's been years that the phone cord has been there...it ripped off! So I had to call SBC and rewire all the lines in all the house because I didn't have insurance with my telephone services. I finally did it and connected the red, green, yellow and black wires correctly and guess what?! My broadband connection is alot faster than before. So I guess they were right about old lines in the house. Well, I hope you had a good day.

Today...oh today. I woke up this morning right, and I wrote my girlfriend to see what she was doing. She was working at her part time job today, and I didn't know that! I get jealous when she does things without telling me. Even when she works! I'm that jealous? I have to change the way I think. Anyhow, she said, "I told you I worked today to make up for Friday." So I asked her to come to my house and she did. She looked very depressed when she came here and I asked her what was wrong. She said that she was in pain, and I asked her what kind of pain. She said it was not cramps, not pain like pregnancy pain or anything, like she was just in regular pain. She was crying and holding me in my room and her tears were wetting my shirt alot. I held her in my arms and I told her everything is going to be okay. She's very insecure and I'm always the one to have to help her security. I'm also insecure as well. So imagine! Two very insecure people who are in love with each other. Anyway, to get to my point, I was curious because my girlfriend was never interested in any guys, or was she ever looking for one. I just was lucky to meet her and make her fall in love with me. I then asked her after everything was well..."Sweetheart, do you find any other guys attractive?" She said..."Of course not, I only want you, I only love you and I only have eyes for you....except..." And I paused and my whole heart went out of my chest....then she said, "Except A. Rod." I was like...who the crap is A. Rod?!! "Alex Rodriguez from the Texas Rangers...he's so dreamy!" Then I felt like Guile when he gets K.O'ed on Street Fighter II Turbo....."ooh aww...ooh aww...ooh aww...ooh aww...." So now I hate baseball and I am going to print a picture of "Gayrod" and make some nasty marks on his face with a marker!!

So, since I just came from Florida to Texas, there is a significant and grand change. First of all, the weather. To me so far, it seems that here in Texas, there is winter for like 5 months, and summer for 6 months. And the only month of spring that there is, seems to be for just 1 month only. I'm still trying to get used to the cold wind, and the dry heat. But aside from summertime...I've been keeping busy by trying to prove to my girlfriend that I love her. Did you know that when you truly love someone, you notice the smallest things. Even the things that get you angry. For example, today she went with her mom and dad to one of their friends house. And this guy (whoever he is) was drunk supposedly. That's what my girlfriend said. I love her, so I trust her. Anyway, I was painting my mom's room with my brother while she was driving over there. How do I know? We text message each other all day and the next thing you know, she doesn't answer me for like 5 hours straight. I was worried about her because I didn't know why she wasn't answering. I was messaging her on the phone and the only thing she wrote to me four hours later was that she got in trouble, and "they" were playing with her phone. Who's "they"? Why did she get in trouble? She never told me, so I'm willing to pass that and accept what she told me. She said that her parent's friend was drunk and took her phone away from her, and while I was text messaging her, he was reading my text messages. And she didn't do anything about it. I guess she was just staring at him while he read every personal message. I mean, everytime someone else is going to use her phone, (like her mom, brother, etc.) she tells me that someone is going to use it, therefore...I won't write to her until she calls me or writes to me first. But this time, she didn't even warn me about anything. Finally, she drives home and says, "I'll tell you what happened in a bit." She never tells me, I call her, we start talking about something totally off subject. And me, because I love her, because I'm so dumb that I can't ask her what had happened, I go on answering her questions about this and that and totally forget about what I wanted to know. Good work girl. So we get into this big argument because I said she was too busy to write me or call me. And when you love someone, it can get really ugly real fast. But I'm a person who is willing to communicate, but then again, I'm stubborn. To make a long story short, she hung up on me, called me "fake" and told me she'd see me tommorrow. That's just because she was really sleepy. I know her already. So I just wrote her a few poems on her phone while she's asleep right now. Thanks for reading all of this. What should I do? Forget about today? Or get the splinter out of my head tommorrow by talking about this situation and analyzing every angle until I'm completely satisfied? Thoughts?

As for having family in the armed forces...I was actually wanting to join the Marines when I was still in high school. I was so close to joining, I just needed to sign to join. But why? Why did I back out? Because of my family telling me, "No...you can do better in college and get grants and this and that." Sometimes I do wish I did join though. I would have been already 9 years there like my friend from high school. Anyway, thanks to this holiday I don't get to go to work today. Usually I would be getting ready to go to work by now. And sometimes I just get tired of the routine life, don't you? I try to make the most out of my life, as when people say..."Live life to its fullest!" But it's hard for me to do that sometimes. I know there are plenty of days that if it was actually my last day on Earth...it would of sucked bigtime. I think everything revolves around money. If I was Bill Gates...then I could probably live everyday of my life to its fullest. But guess what? I'm living paycheck by paycheck struggling with bills and how is that living my life? I feel like I'm just wasting it. Not to a point of suicide, I am thankful for everything that I have. But I guess....the routine life just bores me sometimes. Especially since I moved here recently and I don't know anyone...but I do have a girlfriend and I think you guys know about her situation. They don't even let her go out. So she got 3 jobs on purpose and goes to school full time so she won't stay home. Anyway, I hope you're having a good day and thinking negatively is just going to bring you down. So cheer up!

I went to sleep last night at around 2am. And my little 4 year old nephew was up playing Mario Kart Double Dash. He doesn't know how to use the controller that much, but boy...he is very smart. He just goes by the colors on the controller to know how to go, reverse, etc. It amazes me how I just stare at him looking at the screen and saying things like, "Watch this dad, watch, watch...watch this dad...you see?!!" He calls me dad because I practically raised him. Anyhoo, he stayed up all the way until 5am!! And when I turned on my bed, he was on the other side with the TV on and the Gamecube controller in his hand laying down on my bed! Lol...so I took the controller out of his hand and turned off the TV and the Gamecube also because I hate the light bothering me. But, it has been raining alot here and I love the rain to sleep. With the AC on and under the blankets. But...are you all having cookouts today? My girlfriend is and maybe it's because of Memorial Day right? Either way, I hope you guys have a good day and guess what? No work tommorrow! Alright! I can sleep late again!

I've been getting pressured lately by my girlfriend. I'm 25 years old and she's 21. We've been going out for a year and 3 months now and I've always been strict in my beliefs and what I want going for me and what I want in life. I've always had this picture in my head of graduating college and finding a good job and then settling down. But the girlfriend thing is sort of rearranging things in a different perspective. I've always wanted to get married at 28 years old. Why 28? I don't know, maybe because I think it's a good age and it's a good time to be alone with your wife for about 2 years being together and living with each other without kids. Because I know having kids also rearrange your life completely. My girlfriend wants to get married, period. I already opened my big mouth a while back by telling her I'd marry her by November. And I had a plan set, I'd tell her I would marry her in November and during this time until then, I would delay the marriage for 2 years or more. I think I'm too young to get married. Many people have told me, "Why don't you get her an engagement ring so she'll back off for a while? Or what about a promise ring?" That sounds like a good idea and I have to save money to buy her an engagement. But everytime she brings up the subject of marriage, we always end up arguing. Can you believe it? She has never once, met my mom or any of my family members only for my little sister. Who she only saw for like five minutes and that's it. My other sister left to Florida so there goes that. My parents got divorced so she'll never meet my dad. My brother is schizophrenic and she's never met him either. I met her parents, her older brother, younger brother and older sister and her parents hate my guts. Because they are the old fashioned type that watch us at her porch at night through the window. I'm serious, I love this girl to death and I know she's the one for me. But I'm not prepared for marriage and I also feel as if she's just using that as an excuse to leave her house. She's told me she feels trapped because she never goes out and I only get to see her at work. I also feel like her parents are way overprotective and I don't understand why they think I'm a bad person. They've never even given me a chance to get to know them. Anyway, I'm starting to get depressed a little and the only way I can let myself be understood is by posting this to complete strangers. Anyway, thank you for reading all the way through.