Well I woke up today at about 9:30, did regular morning stuff. I was waiting for Mindy to call me and so I read JF's entry saying he's getting back into Metroid Prime, so I figured I should too! But then I realized I haven't tended to my town in Animal Crossing. Also my dad told me I'd need to mow the backyard today. So I'm restoring my town for about 20 minutes when she calls, so therefore I turned the game off.

We talked to each other a long time today and I tried my best to make her feel better about what's recdently been going on because it IS hard to hold in your feelings, so we can't say stuff like "I miss you." and stuff, or at least not that often. We now have to be in the "friend" status, although we're slightly more. We're "more-than-friends-in-waiting" I guess. She mentioned that her friend said, "You're single now" and she's like 'No... I'm not" her friend is like "Yes you are." And she tells me directly "I don't want to be called single." But when she told me that I told her that we're not really single, but we're not not single. We're just waiting for the right time. She worried a bit that now she can't even say anything or do anything to show that she still cares about me and she's worried I'm going to forget that and thus it makes it easier for lies to get in. She's crazy if she thinks I'll ever doubt her affection for me, I won't. I know that she does care about me and I'm not going to doubt it.

So we talked until 5:00 when my dad walks in and tells me to go and I ask him for 15 more minutes, and he says okay. Then he comes in exactly 9 minutes later and yells at me and tells me to get off the phone and thus I have a forced quick "goodbye" with her, which I hate. That's why I needed the extra 15 minutes, we can't just say "goodbye" then *click* It doesn't work like that. So then I'm mowing the yard until a time (I mow in an enclosng rectangle) when the small recantangle has a big black wasp on it. Now, when it comes to snakes, wasps, scorpions, large spiders, and large roaches, I get into a psychological state where I feel I HAVE to get away from it. It's a phobia. Now I'm on a riding lawnmower and then I try to cut around it again and the little thing where all the grass flies out of, it blows the wasp away... for a while. I'm riding down after I see it blown away and after about 2 seconds it's flying parallel to me and it's VERY close. Now this is a riding lawn mower, I can't just get off and it'll stop. It got really wacky because I kept like trying to just put it in neutral or take the key to start it out and I kept like going backwards and foward, it was crazy.

I asked my dad to the last part and he yells at for "never being able to finish a job." If someone yells at me, it's VERY hard for me not to lose my temper. And considering the way he treated me all day, I've had enough. We yelled a little bit, then he finally did it and I had to sweep out basketball court and the porch to the house that we rent out behind our house. I do and then he tells me I have to weedwhack. I get it started and he DEMANDS to use it for a while and he does like 10% and then I finish up the rest. I fnish up and it's hot and I'm tired and very sweaty and it's about 7:15 so I'm done and I go take a shower.

Then I call Mindy afterwards and my dad yells at me telling me I didn't sweep OUR backyard porch (which he never told me to sweep, he said I should just know!) I then have to say goodbye to Mindy for the final time (we talked for about 40 minutes) and I get angry at my dad and I just sweep the porch and I don't say anything to him when I'm done and I get in the house, but he starts yelling at me again. Then we both argue and I'm yelling at him for being obnoxious and criticizing everything I've done for him today. I mean, I'm mowing the lawn for free when my brother used to get paid when he did it. So he's going to criticize a free favor. And it was just ARGH! He said "Is this the kind of job you do for the church when they ask you to do a job!?!?" And I say "I don't have to mow the church's lawn!" and he says "Yes, but whatever they ask you to do, do you do it like you do this!?!?" and I said "I do it to the best of my ability, just like I mowed and weedwhacked today to the best of my ability! I'm sorry my best is not good enough for you, *insert 4 letter profanity starting with D and ending with A-M-N* it!"

I stormed out and went to my room and after about 20 seconds I prayed and asked God to forgive me for dishonoring my father like that and letting my temper get the best of me and letting certain words come out that shouldn't have been said. That's the first time I've cursed in like a year, I'm so disappointed in myself... So then after I prayed I went outside and I apologized to him for getting angry and saying that word to him (Although he didn't care I said that word, he's not Christian). Then he apologizes to me for being so "hasty" with me and for not realizing that I'm trying my best. Because, you know, when you try your best and then someone criticizes what you just attempted to do, it isn't encouraging :(... Then I went and played some Metroid Prime on hard mode and I got the plasma beam! Those space pirates better watch their back! Plasma beam = total ownage! 8)