Hey guys, its me AceDonald (aka Donald Strohman),
Its been a while since Ive written anything on this site, because Ive been focused on a lot of things and dealing with stuff. Wow, where to begin. I'm 17 now, listened to Green Day's 21st Century Breakdown and loved it, saw American Idiot on Broadway, got a cat named Psycho, played a bunch of games; stuff like that. The time since my last post in August 2009 to now June 2010 has been had some fun, but mostly realizations and acceptance of how things must be.
Schools almost over, and I'm quite glad it is. Junior year has been nothing but a drag from the beginning, especially with the harsh break up I endured right before school started. I have not found anyone else yet, because frankly I believe Im too scared to try again, or believe Ill f*ck everything up somehow. Its not like I haven't tried, I just haven't asked anyone out; due to previous experiences with rejection.
First marking period I failed Algebra 2, got a 69, teacher wouldn't give me extra credit to raise it up to a 70 because she hated me from the moment I spoke a word in that class. Good news though I got it up to an 88 by the end of marking period 4 thanks to my tutor Mrs. Stout.
Started seeing a therapist to help with final problems with break up with Rachael (I really did love her guys). He's also helping me get confidence back. I look forward to each meeting, hes a great guy and a good friend.
Most days in school feel lonely. Most of the time I just wait for school to end or look forward to few classes with people who talk to me. Things were much better in 10th grade...when I had............never mind.
Ive visited colleges, thinking about Wildlife Conservation/ Environmental stuff to major in? Still questioning it.....
First wanted to be a vet, but changed my mind after internship at vet's. They didnt care about the people or the animals, only about the business. Put dead animals in a plastic bag like they never meant a thing to the world......
Im the Troop Guide in my Scout Troop 180, people say Im doing a good job....
Eagle Scout project will be building barn owl nesting boxes to assist their recovery.
I still dont know how to play guitar, but I think my song writing skills have improved since a while ago.....break up helps give me ideas......
Played Heavy Rain, Fear 2, etc....
Getting Green Day Rock Band tomorrow...
Still trying to find a place in this world where I can truly be happy and just relax. Realize I mean something..Im not depressed all the time...I just.......you know......question things alot.............
Im sure not that many people will read this, but I just wanted to give a small update on things......
Hopefully I write again sooner or later...
-AceDonald (Donald Strohman)