Im going to try and have one of these every Saturday, its basically whats going on with my life for anyone who cares.  As I sit out on my porch typing this, I think about where i am right now.  I just turned 18, got my drivers license, and I just got done qualifying with an M-16 rifle.  The only thing that bothers me is the memory of my ex girlfriend.  How can one person have such an effect on me?  I dont know.  Perhaps because she was my first true girlfriend, and she didnt turn out the way I thought she would.  I dont know, will this feeling of loss ever end?  It goes away for awhile, then it returns suddenly.  Ah well, like the guy said, its better to love and lost than not loved at all.  Man the rain really has this thinking effect sometimes.  I just sit out here and listen and watch it typing this and I start wondering about life.  What will I become?  Will I make it in todays ever changing society?  I hope so.  But for now, I will enjoy my spring break that Ive earned and also rest tonight for my PT test tomorrow.

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