well i graduated last friday. im not sure how i feel about it yet. i mean i was excited but i feel different now. im happy to be out of school but somehow unfulfilled. it doesnt feel like any other summer. i dont know.... i guess maybe it just hasnt completely sunk in yet.... the fact that i never have to go to school again. at the ceremony i was thinking a lot... should i be proud? should i deserve all this... im not special i did the minimum.. i graduated high school, wow. i made par, i did what i was supposed to do, why should i be praised? as i argued in my head an american-society brainwashed thought came up.. i dont know why i thought it but to make myself feel accomplished i said, at least i feel happy i can start my life now...then i argued with myself, but why does life start after high school? because now i can work to feed the government? now i can become a productive individual working to fuel the never ending black hole named economy. why is my life valued most when im an adult? OH thats right because i make money and i am worth something in society. i constantly hear, youre in the world now, get ready to start you life. this is the real world. according to society thats where you enter the "real world" why? because your responsibility changes? it simply shifts to another set of goals. the "real world".... what does that consist of? real people? was i not real before? what world did i live in? not everyones lives start after high school. my life started a long time ago, when i realized i am soley responsible for myself through my own actions and nobody will ever love me like i love me. my life started when i learned everything around me has been fake and i finally learned opened my eyes to the scene behind the curtain. that happened years ago. so why wasnt i in the real world before? there are some adults who havent entered the real world and some kids who deal with it at 12. i guess what im getting at is i didnt need some diploma to tell me i can stop living in a fantasy, and start feeling the cold hard sting of reality. because the manipulation of our society has killed reality. the media and movies have intertwined with the fibers of reality, taking over, and no one can establish the difference anymore. reality shows with actors, made for tv love, fake news, pseudo security, acting out a true story, plastic people. when reality becomes so clouded, the definition of such a thing is so unknown and beyond our comprehension as human beings. please elaborate on this statement, what the **** qualifies you to tell me i was living in an artificial world until this point in my life. until this very second i was not real and my life begins now. so many people are oblivious to the truth of their surroundings. what makes their world anymore real than mine? theyre fake idealistic. yet they live in the real world and up until now i wasnt..... moral of the story, or the point at least, my life and the real world began when i started living my own life not someone elses. not my parents, not society's and not the governments. and i dont need some middle class socialist pig inviting me into their whorehouse. into their real world made up of plastic smiles and bloody money. no... by popular definition the real world is where life begins.. by my definition THEIR real world is where my life ends, and i will never enter it. **** you, i started to wake up years ago. and i dont want to live in your fictitious little world where you live to work, and die empty. a world where people are always hungry for more until they consume everything, the most horrid monsters are disguised and believed to be saints, the common man is driven by money and blind folded by its false promises, then back stabbed by the pain of his empty existence. and the systematic lifestyle of a cookie-cutter suburbian drone is ideal in a perfect life. this is far from perfection. this is your real world where your society tells you what you want, dream and need. you need this brand, you need that car, you fear this. every emotion is controlled by societys definition of the american dream. " we are living in the age of which the pursuit of all values other than money, success, fame, glamour, have either been discredited, or destroyed. money, success, fame, glamour for we are living in the age of the thing."

not my world.

p.s. if anything at all makes sense to you im suprised, i was venting and it was kind of all over.. sorry.