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I'm lost in a fictitious world

I don't know reality anymore. Between TV, books and my dreams, I'm getting so confused :?

I've always had a bad memory. I remember certain things, but I tend to repress anything bad that has happened to me. And I think I repressed so much, that I started to forget things that weren't even bad. Also, my life is so boring that there's nothing exciting to remember anyway.

Now, I'm started to feel lost in a daze.
Last week, I started watching episodes of Detective Conan online. I'd watch about 5 episodes at once, then, I'd go watch Murder, She Wrote. It's no surprise that I started to dream about solving mysteries and deaths. But, I'm getting paranoid over every little thing--not that I wasn't paranoid before...

Also, I was reading Eclipse so now, everything reminds me of Bella and Edward.

Then, there's my dreams. I've always wanted to live in them. I rarely if ever have nightmares. They're always great and enjoyable. I feel nothing but joy in them, and when I wake up, I'm extremely disappointed to realize that it was only a dream.

And when I try to remember something, it gets tangled up in my dreams, books and TV shows. I may be slowly losing it.

"All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream" - Edgar Allan Poe