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I had the worst new year of my life. I spent it alone, drinking Cuba libres, beer and gin on the side, at top speed until it became time to be sick.

I did other things too, but I won't mention those here.

I think I'll play MGS3 again.

I wish all my gamespot friends a very merry Christmas.

I've suffered from insomnia for most of my life, but it has progressively gotten much worse over the past few years. Having insomnia is the worst thing you could imagine, almost like a torture, your not constantly full of energy and thus unable to sleep. In fact it's the complete contrary, I'm always tired, totally sleep deprived beyond rhyme or reason, however I only manage to sleep two or three hours a night. This was made much worse three nights ago.

I awoke suddenly and I immediately knew something was wrong. From the second I opened my eyes I was filled with fear, it was unlike any fear I have ever felt in my life, my heart was going a mile a minute and suddenly I realised the full extent of the situation. I was paralyzed, totally and completely helpless, unable to move even my toes. There was a pressure on my chest and I realised that somebody was holding my arms down and I could clearly hear helpless screams of fear and panic coming from the room next door. The screams were coming from my parents.

Allow me to try and put this slightly in perspective. You wake up in the middle of the night -- you are clearly awake, it's not a vivid dream, your 100% awake -- your totally paralyzed. There is somebody sitting on your chest holding you down while you can hear the screams of your parents coming from the other room.

As this madness reached it's peak, suddenly it stopped. I could move fine and the room was totally silent, but the fear was still there. I thought I was dreaming, I must have, right? What else could it have been? I sat there and the first thing I did was turn on the tv, it calmed me immediately, however it took me three hours before I could try and go back to sleep.

Sleep Paralysis

"Sleep paralysis usually happens when someone is just entering or leaving sleep, and lasts from a few seconds to a couple of minutes. Most research has linked it with REM, or rapid eye movement, sleep which indicates dreaming. When the body and brain enter REM sleep, the muscles relax and the brain blocks signals that would normally allow the limbs to move, so preventing the body from acting out its dreams. One suggestion for the cause of sleep paralysis is that the firewall between sleeping and wakefulness temporarily drops, so that some sleep phenomena, of which paralysis is one, breaks into wakefulness."

Thank god it has a name!

"Nintendo...Will not do nearly as well with the Wii once third parties try to skirt the control issue the same way they're trying to skirt the DS touchpad/microphone/second screen issue. They'll treat the Wiimote as Right Analog, the Nunchuck as Left Analog and call it a day, circumventing any actual opportunity for innovation. (I predict that 90% of the Wii's third-party games will end up needing the Nunchuck. While we're at it, I seriously doubt that most third parties would want to replace their game characters with Miis, either!) Nintendo's only hopes are the promise of the $1750 devkit and the possibility of indie development through WiiWare. They've drawn in new talent with Fund Q in the past; they just need to spread the net out a bit. I'm not sure that they will, however, because this is the company who isn't even supporting recent video standards. Hell, VGA output would work! (Sure, some say Component's good enough. That may be so if the cable were easier to find--)

Yeah, many of us thought Nintendo would tear MS and Sony apart with the Wii because, you know, "OMG NINTENDO HAS TO WIN THIS TIME." No, it isn't the case at all--now that the Wii has been seen and messed with, harsh reality sets in and we have to sit down and say "yeah, the gamble isn't going to get them as far as they'd hoped." Just because you believe in Nintendo with all your heart isn't going to make them win."

There are some very interesting points made here. Especially about the Wiimote as Right Analog, the Nunchuck as Left Analog, I can certainly see that happening in lots of games, if hasn't happened already. This really isn't a dig at Nintendo though, they've tried something new and are just counting on developers being as 'innovative' as they are, I hope it works, but developers are lazy.

rest in peace liksang 

There I've said it! and I don't care, if you don't like it lord, then you and me can have words.

I probably said I liked my previous job when I first started it too and more than likely I'll say the same thing about my next job. I don't care though, because for now this is how I feel and I don't feel any other way.

My job is easy and it pays well (much better than my previous job anyway) It's also interesting. I talk to people from all over the world, every day. People from Thailand to tennessee from Johannesburg to Japan.

I've learned many things during the short time i've been in my job, I've learned that Americans, when presented with a dove will call it an eagle, they are shocked when I tell them that the USD is not the worlds only currency and that the irony of them not being able to understand my accent is overwhelming. We created this language remember, being called English is not a coincidence.

'I can't understand you!! where the hell are you from?!'

'The United Kingdom madame...remember? The country that used to own you people.'

I've learned that south Africans are the most patient, polite and professionally friendly people you could meet. Much the same as Canadians, however they aren't professionally friendly, they're just genuinely friendly. The Japanese are very sweet and will try so hard to help you in any way they can. Germans are impatient. Contrary to popular belief, the french are not rude and they are not arrogant, that happy little attribute goes to the British. Zimbabweans will sound like they are angry with you and yell at you even when they are simply telling you they're phone number.

There are many things about this job that are interesting. It could be the three times I've had to contact the FBI or the fact that I've spoken to more people, in more languages (via an interpreter) than I could have ever imagined.

I think it comes down to one thing though. And that's the fact that when I arrive home to my little house in a city just north of London in the UK, I know that I'm possibly the only person in this country, who that evening was wished a happy a Halloween by a lady in the Circus Circus hotel in Las Vegas Nevada.

Much love

BB-FatAss

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Some Might say this is 'cool' or 'awesome', I however find it depressing as hell...well...it is kinda cool.

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I should probably let it die, let it curl up in some corner of gamespot and meet its grim demise. Oh well. Maybe I should See how far I can push it.

Much love

BB-FatAss

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