Another weekend passed. It wasn't for the miserable two hours with Phantasy Star Portable yesterday, I wouldn't have played at all.Unfortunately, it has become more normal than I think it should be.
I feel like I live in two worlds: on one, I am a professional, have a job, professional responsibilities, a house to take care and all the "real-life" stuff that everyone knows very well.
In my other world, I am a gamer. I could game a whole day and still feel fresh and happy. I could spend hours with Diablo, Bayonetta, Dead or Alive and have lots and lots of fun.
Now, here I am, on a Sunday evening, blogging a little to feel better. At least, to express what is going on in my head. I do talk about gaming with my colleagues, but probably I am lucky for them not really saying what they think about it. I am in Europe. Gaming is for kids or good-nothings. It is not something a woman my age should dare think of. But I do...
I miss my clan-mates, training like crazy to get better on a game, squeezing my schedule to attend practices and meetings. Oh man... I love this life. But again, I can't...
I wish life was simpler and cheaper, that I could combine my hobby and my career. That I didn't have to make such a difficult choice and still feel that something is missing. I wish, but it is not that simple...
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