what the eff is the problem with politicians who think that they know what's best for the military?

you know nothing.

you are not in the military.

if you have a problem with people being gay go eff yourself

this just pisses me off to no end.

i may not be gay myself, but it doesn't matter to me what your sexual preference is.

how do politicians feel they have the right to decide this?

they don't.

and they need to get over it.

sorry for the rant, but this just got me really angry.

xoxo Becca300

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd little waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like." - Lemony Snicket

i just reread my last post and i sounded so angsty! i apologize for that.

i am finishing up my thanksgiving break and i am feeling much better than last week. believe me!

i still have 2 weeks of classes and then a week of finals to get through, but hopefully i can pull through without having a breakdown :)

i am already getting frustrated with this 10 page research paper that is due next friday, while trying to get all the rest of my homework done.

i'm sure i will be working almost all day and night next week.

oh college life. ugh!

Becca300

"I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances." -Martha Washington

Lately i've been feeling emotionally like crap and i don't know why.

sometimes i feel like i want to drop out of school, and i normally love my cl asses (excepting a couple boring ones). but now i just want to skip cl ass and sleep all day.

i'm only a sophomore and i am most likely going to be going to grad school to get my ph d. it's just so hard to deal with sometimes, that i just break down and cry.

i find it hard to deal when most of my friends in college have other friends they hang out with more. i'm used to having a few friends and only hanging out with them because i feel more comfortable with a couple good friends and a few other friends that i hang out with every once in a while.

but at the same time, i barely have time to hang because i have so much homework! urgh! it's so frustrating.

Becca300

Now is not the time
And you're not alone
Shut up about it
No one can bring you down now

-lyrics by Lights, "Last Thing on Your Mind"

i always thought that people weren't as close minded as they actually are. now i'm out in the real world and i have realized my perception of people was way off.

if you can't tolerate someone else, what makes you think that they will tolerate you.

just look at what we are doing to the Muslim's of America specifically, and all over the world, right now.

A guy recently decided that he was going to burn Qur'ans with a bunch of people. burning Qur'ans is just plain wrong. of course now this guy isn't going to do it because he got such a negative response to it, but just the fact that he was gonna do it in the first place is awful.

nobody is burning the bible just to get back at you are they? NO. so don't treat other people like that.

not all Muslims are 'terrorists'. i've seen a large range of the percentage of Muslims who aren't terrorists, with the highest being 99% and the lowest being around 90%. There are billions of people who practice Islam all around the world.

Maybe if (mostly) Americans opened their eyes they would see that Christianity is not the only religion in the world.

Just because someone doesn't practice the same religion as you, doesn't mean they are inferior either.

all of this brings me back to the views of a Chinese philosopher written in the Analects. Maybe you've heard of him: Confucius. he was the originator of the golden rule. his quote is the one i will be ending this blog with.

just remember that sometimes being more open-minded will make you less ignorant in the long run, and maybe less of a d-bag.

xoxo

Becca300

"Never impose on others what you would not choose for yourself." -Confucius

i do appreciate my friends thinking about me when they need advice, but sometimes i don't have what they are looking for.

ive never had a boyfriend.

yes. im almost 19 and haven't had a boyfriend yet.

is there something wrong with that?

i don't think so.

then you come to me saying how awesome it was to hook up with someone.

i don't care about that. that is your own business.

there are plenty of reasons why i haven't had one.

i personally think the most important one is that i'm almost 19.

19 is still really young.

secondly no guy ever looks at me twice. the only guy who ever looked at me differently...well that is a story for another time.

i'm always immediately put in the 'friend zone' because i'm not pretty enough, outgoing enough, or willing to make out them at the drop of a hat.

that's not who i am.

i accept that about myself.

and if i end up living a lonely life?

i've always loved cats. :)

xoxo

Becca300

"True love begins when nothing is looked for in return." -Antoine de Saint-Exupery

in certain times of my life i feel like no one even thinks about things from my perspective.

i absolutely hate being canceled on. do you know how many times i've been canceled on in the last week?

probably about 4 times.

it's getting a bit ridiculous.

sure i don't take offense when someone does cancel but at the same time, i make room for you and when someone asks me if i can hang, i have to turn them down bc i already made plans.

if you already had plans then don't say you can hang out with me.

canceling on me minutes from the time we were supposed to hang out is not cool.

it's a bit absurd.

Becca300

"Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much." -Oscar Wilde

i love college. i do. i really do.

but when i have too much homework i don't love it. i mean...who does...right?

i am super exhausted on my weekends because i am spending upwards of 6-8 hours on saturday and 4-6 hours on sunday with a 4 hour workday.

my mind is literally mush right now and i still have work that i need to get done but i physically and emotionally cannot.

here's to hoping it gets better and not worse.

xoxo

Becca

"The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change." -Carl Rogers

when i want to hang out with you, i want to hang out with you. not you and all of your life problems.

i don't mind listening to your problems every once in a while, but if it happens every time that we hang out, it causes me not to want to hang out all the time.

so thanks for not burdening me with your problems, when i have ones of my own.

xoxo

Becca300

"I would rather make mistakes in kindness and compassion than work miracles in unkindness and hardness."-Mother Teresa

i honestly hate hot weather. i can deal with the 70 degree weather. upper 70's is pushing it.

i love me the 65 degree weather. i can wear a sweatshirt and shorts, or a long sleeve shirt and shorts, and still be comfortable.

the cold weather is easier to adjust to because you can just bundle up. it's harder to adjust in the summer.

ugh.

oh well. i guess i'll survive without air conditioning.

xoxo

Becca

i loathe going to work. i wish i had a job where i actually wanted to go to work.

i absolutely hate serving people because i feel so much pressure trying to get everything 'perfect' that i just freak out in my head. which is weird, but that's how i am.

so when someone (my boss) berates me for trying to hand out a sundae that doesn't 'look good' then i will take it personally.

i don't know how to not take something like that personal because i never really learned how to have it 'bounce off of me' and just take the criticism.

however she actually did kind of yell at me for it.

ugh.

i just needed to write it out so i could feel better. it kind of did...

xoxo

Becca