Soo I've been playing three games mostly the last two weeks. Bad company, Prince of Persia (the latest edition to come out), and UFC Undisputed. Also I have a few back up games lining up behind them as well that I don't bust out as much as I should through. Fable 2, Dark Athena C.O.R, Burnout Paradise, and Tales of Vesperia.
So heres my problem after playing all those games I just can't find myself getting into them. So I tend to play all of them and I think that just makes my indecisiveness even worse. When I was growing up I can remember my interest in a single game was as strong as anything I had experenced before at the time. I could play a game so single mindedly that the world would disappear completely and it was just me and 8 hours of pulling off all thefinishing moves on mortal Kombat on sega master system. I truely wonder what my problem is, I love video gaming its the only thing in my life that makes sense and gives me a smile when everything else disappoints me in the end. My best friend is too busy with his girl now and it seems his full attention is just on her and only her. Personally I don't like her one bit but hes in love so I treat her with the utter most respect I can muster and bite my tongue when I just wanna put the little tramp in her place. I dropped out of college couple months ago, I just couldn't afford it and Now I am just sad that I did. I guess I'm at a cross roads really and I actually realize that maybe I have a problem that I never really seen before. I'm a video game addict I think. Odd really when I think about it but not too surprising, the conflicts of life and constant let downs tend to be too much for some people which leads them too chemcial substances for personal relief from events they can't control. I always viewed those people as weak and well absolutely pathetic to say the least. Cruel to say and believe I guess, I've never viewed myself as a terrible mean cruel person but I guess my insight on things are rather harsh and one sided then again being human I'm far from perfect.
Seriously I'm probably the most defective person on the planet when I think about it. I have a speech handicap, I have a partial long term memory span, no short term memory, also I'm 6"1' and only one hundred twenty pounds on good days. So I really don't know where these self centered beliefs came from, maybe television gave them to me or maybe possibly the way others treated me ended in my sharp uncaring feelings towards others... Oh well this post has no true purpose soo I'll leave you all with a I hope you have a good day and hopefully my babble didn't bore you too much.
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