Rivers of blood
coming from my tears through pain
Thousand of pieces of an heart
Crying from losing its dearest thing

Never to rise again
Never to smile again
Nothing but one alone
Nothing but anger and fear

A goodbye to the life
A goodbye to everything
just nothing more to be born
Just everything more to die

No more happyness
No more hope and passion
Nothing in the end lasts
So with it my heart dies...

Friendship... that is something else that got questionned a lot. How can you say you have true friendship with someone? Well, to be honest, it is hard... and for me as well... I am naive (if it is not an english word, I am sorry... it means that I trust people too easily) and at least I do know that I am... Yes, there is people that uses others and mostly with their emotions. Yes, emotive people tend to be more malaeble (or w/e how its written) cause they tend to listen their emotions and not their head. However, some people might try to manipulate but they end up being a real friend of that person and give up on the manipulation.

Also some people you think are friends will be there for the fun, for all the laughs that are going on... but when something bad happens, they just disapears, they do not support you and leave you behind, alone in the darkness of you pain. And as soon as you are back up on the laughs, they will be back near you. But when they have something bad happening to them, they will want you to stay by them and listen to them whinning even though they did nothing to help you in time of despair. Some might be there to listen to you but they will not get you back on your acts. They will watch you destroy yourself, and do nothing to stop you.

True friends are the ones that are always there for you. You can always call them anytime you want, you can talk to them without being afraid of having them being mad at you for something you did. And even if they were, they would be back an hour after, apologizing for their rudeness. You can count on them as much as they can count on you. I you are about to do something that can destroy you either physically or either mentally, they will stop you and help you find another solution. Those friends are the ones that you can count on your fingers. There is not that many people around you that you can fully trust nor that can fully trust you. Those friends are the most precious and they are also the ones that helps you grow a lot stronger. Let yourself know that if you fail in their trust, it will be hard to get it back...

Just some thoughts I just had... if there is some more to add, ill do another part for it.

Life? what is life?

Many people still questions about the meaning of life. All they see is black around them. They don't see why they should stay alive and yet they still stay strong and keep going no matter what. Lots of people are having hard time, very hard times, some loses family members, others fails an exam so important for them, others are being laughed at... Some people have no shoulder to cry onto and they see everything so dark that they put an end to their pain. Yes, living is painful but there is always light in the darkest night.

I am not writting this to a special person, I am writting this down because I have known lots of friends that saw so dark... my half-brother suicided some years ago, the same year, my grand-father died from cancer... and about 10 years ago, I lost an uncle and an aunt in a storm, they were on a boat, but fault wasnt theirs, meteo said it was giong to be a sunny day...

Yes I did saw dark, hard to believe that I did thought about suicide at that time, unlike on the game, I was not popular at all, everyone was laughing at me, not many people were nice to me, they were all mean. Yes I did almost suicide but at that time, I had a friend by me... A friend that opened my eyes just in time.. I was questioning life a lot that year, I wanted to end my pain... And I am thankful to that friend for going through all that with me cause I did not gave up and still kept going... I am stronger now.

We can always pity everything around us. Why does people do that? why is that thing exists if it is to bring pain to everyone?... The only thing you have to know is: everyone is trying to make their life better... Yes, some people are self centered and think only about themselves... Take those and leave them with someone that only thinks about the others, I can guarantee you that he will start caring about the others in one way or another... But he will still act the way he always did... but this time, there might be different reasons behind his actions.

The human race tends to judge everyone around them. Someone do something bad once, then for the opposite race, it is the whole race that is bad. I am sick of that. I do not judge and people around me does. Everyone is the same, noone is totally bad. Maybe you did something to someone and that person didn't appreciate you doing that... the only thing that the other person doesnt know about are the reasons for you to do that. The reasons might be good or bad... but nothing is totally good nor bad. You hear people kills others... but do you end up knowing the real reason? The human race is a passive race... always on defense option. Maybe that person killed because he wanted to protect himself from evil threat, maybe that person wanted to protect his/her kids from a potential threat. Maybe the person was just crazy enough to kill someone with no real reasons... But what I mean is : do not judge someone from the actions they are doing, learn to know that person before saying what he is.

Life. Life is some place where people needs to learn to get along with people around them, to help out each other to make their life at their best. Life is made to be seen on the bright side, even if there is always bad stuff going on around you. You live to leave something behind you when you die. When you lost someone dear to you, instead of crying, think about the good stuff he did to people around him. He is dead but in a way, still alive from the stuff he did and the trace he left behind.

For now, I don't know what to writte down anymore... If I have more Ideas, I will make a part 2 to these thoughts

This is my new sig. I am not great as to making one with the software Paint so I draw it and scan it... Hope you guys like it ^^