Which means I'm feeling down. So I've been in three "relationships" (don't really know what I should call them) and if I added up the length of all three it would equate to about 3-4 weeks. Yep. 3 girls, 3 weeks. I know what you're thinking. I must still be in middle school or something. But no...all 3 happened after I graduate high school. I don't think I have anybody to blame but myself for it though... I'm pretty much just going to complain about what happened with each now, so stop reading if you don't care about that :P I was introduced to the first girl through a friend of mine during senior year. My friend wanted me to ask her to prom and I said I would get to know her and decide if I wanted to. I met her shortly after and after talking to her for a few weeks I was really starting to like her. Unfortunately her parents were insanely strict and even getting permission to go to prom was a mission or her. After prom I hung out with her more. Then during summer vacation I was talking to her about actually getting together. I knew her parents would flip out if she had a boyfriend, but I still wanted to try. At first she was worried about her parents, but then she decided to give it a try. For the next two weeks we went out almost every day until her parents finally snapped. They were upset about her going out so much even though they thought we were just friends and we weren't going out alone. So she called me and she was crying so I knew what that meant. Fortunately we're still very good friends. I'm glad that wasn't ruined. The second girl was a friend of the first (Yes I know. Not cool. I couldn't help it though. I had a crush on her even since I saw her in middle school and thought I didn't have a snowballs chance in hell). She was going out with a guy while I was still getting to know and going out with the first girl. She broke up with him shortly after the first girl broke up with me. I'd gone out with her as friends many times before, but we stopped hanging out with each other as much once we got into our relationships (Hate using that word). But we were starting to see each other much more often again. I'm pretty sure she had liked me since we first got to know each other during the school year. I never planned on telling her I liked her because she'd be going off to college in two months. But the flirting started to get ridiculous and a month before she had to leave for college she told me she liked me. In that moment I was having a conflict with myself because I knew that we shouldn't do anything since she'd be leaving soon, but at the same time, the girl I've had a crush on for years is laying there next to me telling me she likes me. I didn't have much time to think. She grabbed my hand and came in for a kiss. At the point my brain shut down, my emotions took over, and I made a decision that I knew was foolish. But I was as happy as can be.

I spent the next couple days hanging out at her house and her mom is saying "I just knew something would happen between you two!" and I was feeling pretty good. 5 days later she tells me she wants to talk. "This is hard for me because I love you so much blah blah blah I'm going to school next month blah blah blah maybe in the future some time blah freakin blah." Saying some crap about how its not really a "break up" as much as it is a "break off" or something. Whatever. So we broke up after five days. Continued to fool around with each other (stupid stupid stupid) and stayed friends when she left. Visited her at college, became sick by what I was seeing, cried like mad for two weeks, haven't talked to her since. The third girl I met in college last summer. I asked her out on a date. We dated a couple months and I could tell she wanted to be my girlfriend. She kept saying crap like "Well maaaaybe if we were boyfriend and girlfriend".... "Well if I was your girrrlfriiiend..." So we made it official. 6 days later she sends me like 5 texts (Yes. Texts.) at 8 freakin' a.m. to break up with me. I didn't care much for this girl though to be honest. I was more upset that she woke me up at 8. She said she wanted to see me in person to talk, so i met up with her for the last time. She said she wanted to be friends and all that crap and I basically said that that's not going to happen. That was the end of that. Sometimes it feels good to just rant :D If you actually read all that, you're awesome. Have a great Valentines Day everybody.