So, 2 weeks ago i went to my mothers for the week. And i did have plans for my boyfriend to come down and spend time with me that weekend butthings didnt come out as planned. But luckily,. the day i went home we got to chill. My mother and his father met and we all went to eat at my favorite resturant the olive garden. We had such a crappy waitress. Big mole on her chin, buck teeth and white trash hair. The parents got along pretty well. Surprisngly. heh. And apparently i look NOTHING like my mother?!?!? psft. we're twins. ray needs his head examined:-/ Anyway, things went well, pops covered the bill and myself and my love drunk partner sat there as the folks walked out and we talked seriously about alot of things, kissed, held each other, did a few other things and i messed up the table and stole the salt n pepper shakers. After that we walked out hand in hand, said our goodbyes and kisses and left.

The next few days i was grounded because i got suspended from school (typical me) and so i couldnt talk to him nor anyone. I felt as if all the burden i had on my shoulders was lifted and my mother has no beef against him now that they actually met and talked. Boyy was he shy. poor thing. Anyway, wensday we finally got to see each other again as i snuck over there and stayed for about 4-5 hours, something like that. We sat on his bed and mainly talked about made out, typical love drunk teenagers except him and ii have soooo much more mentally, physically and spiritally. We're in love and have been for 2.5 years. For me, 3. We plan on a future together when im out of highschool. An apartment, a house, a career, children. No1 will stop us. Its my life. Ill do what i DAMN WELL please. Im a straight a student, i have a future ahead of me. ill be with whomever i wanna be with. But yeah, all the doubts we both had got cleared up those few hours we spent in each others arms, burning.

Have you ever met anyone who has crystal blue eyes like the ocean? its pretty amazing. He has the most angelic face of anyone i have ever met. He has absolutely no flaws whatsoever on his face, not even his birthmark. Eyebrows, perfect. I have to pluck mine (F being italian :() Perfect big crystal blue eyes and long eyelashes. Perfect light pink lips. Perfect long black hair. Everything about him, flawless. It almsot erks me since i have so many flaws myself but he has none. Sure, we both have cuts or bruises but those arent physical flaws in my eyes. Just laying there next to the one ive been in love with for soo long, being able to hold him for hours without anyone telling us no. Being so distant from reality. Getting soo many butterflies ii feel like im going to vomit(which i did a few times lol). Having my breath taken away from me from his kiss. Most of you will never get kissed by someone you are with and have your breath taken away from you. When it happens, you know youve found the right person.

Anyway, yeah. so thats how wensday went and i left around 8:30, went straight to bed. certain reasons :).

Thursday, planned on the same thing and i got to see him again. We spent countless hours in his bed, doing the same things, holding each other, kissing, n stuff. It's such a comfort, to have the man i love, lay behind me, legs intwined with mine, around around my stomach. We were like one body, we fit perfectly together, as do our hands and other parts. It was just, phenominal, absolutely. Little bugger stole my 15$ shaving cream from trader joes lol. And i bought him my herbal essance blue shampoo and conditioner since its what ii use. and he took a few other suveineers as well. We are FULLY commited to one another. We made that offical thursday. Every doubt i ever had, disappeared. In that short timeframe it was just him and ii, together. Nothing else,no one else seemed to exist. No one, no phone ring, no noise, no nothing disturbed us. Sadfly though, thursday was the last day id see my babii in a another long while. But its alright, we've been through more BS than any married couple has.

I love youu sooo much Philip Rayymond Hartmeyer:). Alwayys* Even though your a little rebel..but your my little rebel.:-P

So, this crazy ass mother f-er much told me to write a blog since my profile on here is oooo sooo plain. I guess, here it goes.

I met someone absolutely AMAZING 3 years ago. And as time has passed, we have both fallen madly in love with one another. I have NEVER felt this way about anyone, EVER. Everyone thought we would just be another summer fling, but it turned into much much more than that. We have been through more crap than married couples have been through. We are stronger physically, mentally and emotionaly than most of you. The love we share is RARE and very uncommon, and unfortunately for some, you will never get to experience this kind of bond with another human being. But if you do, consider yourself lucky.

He has not only been loving and caring but he was been faithful and loyal. He has helped me through the hardest times in my life. He's always listens to what i have to say. He puts up with my bull crap and when i vent on him. He knows to watch what he says when its that time of the month. He never talks over me, never tries to overpower what i say/do and NEVER disrespects me. He's pretty much perfect in every aspect. regardless of his flaws, i love him for whom he is.

I was extremely stoked when i got to see him 2 weekends ago. It had been sooo long since we had spent time together. It was literatly like falling in love all over again. Its a crazy feeling. Most of you get to see your boyfriends/girlfriends every god damn day, but our situation is unique and difficult all at the same time. I was nervous, i felt nauseus, it was like i was meeting him for the 1st time again. Things melted right back into place though after about 15minutes. Before you knew it we were joking around, teasing each other and being the loving couple we always are. Just being myself around someone besides my best girl-friend was soo nice. I could be a dork, and a goofball and he still loved me all the same. And you truely know when a man loves you when you can get picked up by him, baggy sweatpants and a hoodie, no makeup, hair a hot mess and he still tells you that you look beautiful. I don't have to get all dressed up around him, and i LOVE that. Most men don't like that in women now a days anyway. Its like..i gotta pay for THAT? Id rather be layed back, in sweatpants, and t-shirt and a baseball cap chillen on the couch with him watching prison break or some stuff like that than be all dressed up like a whore. He's incredible. Two fridays ago when we hung out was incredible.

He is my life. My world. My heart. My love. My soul. My everything. He is not only my partner in crime but my very best friend. I don't know what i would do without him, let alone what i would have done if it wasn't for him. I love him more than life itself. I love my Philip Raymond Hartmeyer. He is mine, FOREVER. *1-16-05*