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Five and a half weeks, not long to wait surely. Yeah right.

2011 has been spent looking forward, a long way forward. Rugby World Cup is here on my shores and I am loving it.

There are All Black and New Zealand flags on every second, car, shop, house and street light in my town (my house included) and the atmosphere is primo vila. Rugby is a religion in NZ and you don't realise how big it is until you get a tourny like RWC on your back doorstep.

The opening ceremony attracted over 2 million veiwers on TV not including the hundreds of thousands who went to the opening game and various fan zones. That is over half the population of our small nation. 50 million veiwers worldwide.

It is something I have looked forward to for 4 years and it has finally arrived, it now feels empty. one word. Skyrim.

Skyrim, I love Rugby but I love Skyrim more. I know it is not out yet but everyone knows its going to be epic. EPIC.

I start work at 4.30am every morning and the first thing I do is google skyrim news from the last 24 hours. Game anticipation is like a drug, you scrounge for any bit of info you can to fill the void, but it's never enough. It's opposite to actual drug addiction, where they say you never get the same buzz from the first hit but you keep trying, with games the final hit when the game arrives is the hit you have been searching for for all those months of teasers, leaks andinterviews.

Five and a half weeks, It's not long. Yeah right.

So i have been absent from a lot of things lately, life in general has kinda flowed by with little achievment, the wife thinks i've been distant and I feel I have lost touch with my good friends.

The friends I speak of have had my back from day one and I have returned little energy of late in showing them how much that all means to me.

My best man (3 years ago now) invited me to an out of town engagement party, I had great intentions of going but at the last minute pulled out. Now i hear he was going to return the favour in adding me to his bridal party, but as I did not provide the effort of showing up i may have missed out on the honours of being there for him as he was for me.

I ended my teens on 76kg, high school rugby rep, regional touch rugby rep and local under 21 rugby rep. **** went downhill when I started getting paid well. Alcohol, girls, drugs and a supervisor post at work, life was more than sweet. I rarely went a weekend without something to cuddle on a fri/sat night. People say I have an addictive personallity. They are not wrong.

If it tickles my fancey I am going to go hard on it until it either dies or becomes outdated.

So then in 06, one great little boy later I got married.

Perspective comes flying in at the speed of sound and hits your life in the guts after kids, and in a good way. The urges of getting wasted on meth, sharing a 40oz with my boys and going out looking for fluff degraded and I turned to gaming as a way of redirecting my ship on an alternative fuel..

And(you are not supposed to start a sentence with "and" but who the f#$k is gunna stop me now?) so it now stands, here I am, 30, married, 2 boys, a supervisor, a homeowner and still above all other vices, a gamer. There it is, Stating gaming as a vice! It must be a vice. Surley anything that makes you feel happy and is not socially accepted must be a vice right?

Anyway I have had a vice filled life so far, I will suely refer to parts of that in later blogs but right now I am going to lay down one of two things I have always said I wanted to do, and in semi sedated conditions, pretty much promised I would do.

First of all, 2 weeks ago I weighed in at 96.6 kg. 96.6 f%$#*n kg. So I have bought a rowning machine and with willpower alone have lost 2.4 kg in 2 weeks, My goal is 85kg or less taking into account I will be doing weights to turn some of the flab into muscle. I might add I suppose, that I have been over 90 kg for going on 9 yrs now. Right about when I stopped playing sport (and met my wife).

So here I am 94.5kg, back on Gamespot, and with a a new sence of determination,reminiscent of my days playing competitive sport. I fully believe i can play games, drink, and still weigh in at my pre 20s weight without having to reduce gaming or drinking.

Stay tuned peeps.