Unexpected
By Richard Zhang
Of all the sadness in the world, there exist few as great as this.
When things go wrong, when you aren't taken as expected,
You will think of yourself as an odd one out.
But is that actually the case?
How many more suffer as you do?
How many are there that suffer in silence,
Longing to be heard, yet taken to be worthless?
There is no discovered cure; perhaps persistence will produce results,
But I do not know what exactly to do.
I have tried all I could, longed to be what I cannot,
And there seems nothing and no one in the world with a damn to give
So we are alone, alone among the happy, the sad,
The successful and the unsuccessful,
And are we even together,
Or is it so secretive that we don't even know each other?
It's been many years now; life is not as it was.
I don't entirely recall how I was able to live as I did,
It seems a long forgotten dream today,
a dream so pleasant that I long to go to bed just to bring it back.
When life gets tough and when work seems worthless,
Don't we all hide in our own little worlds that we create?
Am I alive or not? That is a very good question.
My friends take me for the dead, as a corpse to be walked on,
But, of course, we are all corpses, except for a few,
That can do better, that we envy very much,
But what is left if we just continue to dream?
What, but death, can we expect to achieve?
And so we are all lone souls, searching...searching...for what?
Perhaps the biggest problem of all is understanding yourself.
Of all I love, I cannot love myself,
And, therefore, there is nothing left I can do.
Would it be best if I left the world and all it ever offered?
As many have and so many will.
The world is cold and empty, a barren land,
I see ghosts and spirits, searching for their long lost bodies,
I see myself, and what was long ago,
And I smile and cry and laugh at once,
For perhaps we all had lives before death,
And perhaps it all could have turned out differently.
But, for now, let's just rest and break.
Don't worry about them, I'm here for you; together, we can last forever.
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