I can't believe I just did that. I sent Cody an email. Here's a copy of it:

It's really important that you know this. If there's one thing I learned from Jordan's death, it's that I have to say things today because I might not be there tomorrow to say them. So as hard as it is for me to admit it, here goes. I like you. I don't expect you to feel the same way. Let's face it, up through elementary school I was a total jerk to you. But you said it yourself, you can't help your feelings towards someone. Some people can, but I can't. You don't have to like me to, but I still want to be friends as if nothing as changed. This is all just something I need to get out in the open.

-Nikole