After you read this you can call me mellodramatic, or whatever you'd like. I'm tired of keeping it all bottled up so I'm letting it out. As some of you know, Tyler posted on Roblox on his profile that I am one of his best friends. Now if he just meant that for the site or he meant it for reality, I don't know. But I almos wish he hadn't done it, because a few days after I was someone else's best friend, he lied to me and said everything we had was just a big joke. Yeah, guess who that was. :roll: Did I ever go into extreme detail about what happened at the Lake House? Get your mind out of the gutter; we're only 13. Well, when I still went to Youth Group, our leaders, Garrett's parents and Lucas's parents, took us down to Lucas's cousin's Lake House for an overnight. We all had fun, then the leaders decided we would go for a midnight drive. Everyone else had a good buddy in the group, but I did not. But I didn't care. I was content to sit by myself and look out the window at the beautiful night sky. Then Lucas sat down next to me, because apparently "all the other spots are taken". Which, of course, was complete horse sh*t because there were like 2 completely empty seats in the very back. :roll: I pretended like I didn't care, but I secretyly did because I had a major crush on him since the end of the previous school year, about a month after I broke up with Cody, my first boyfriend. Lucas knew I liked him, because he forced it out of me about a week or two before. So what does he decide to do on the bus? He holds my hand and hugs me. Wraps his arm around me and whispers into my ear, "You're my best friend". Looking back, I should've ignored him, or said "Whatever", but no, I had to say the same thing back to him. Then at school he decides to flirt around with Sadie, just to make me mad. Then a few days after that, he emails me and tells me he likes me a whole lot, only not to tell Brooke or anyone else. Of course I had to tell Brooke, her and I and the rest of the lunch table had a bet on who he liked. So everyone but Alexa, who also liked him at the time, was utterly happy for me. But then ALexa went and told Lucas I told, and the day after that is when he dropped the bomb on me. I still remember it like it was yesterday. Me and Andrea were walking together to the auditorium for th 7th grade assembly. Mr. Compton wanted to talk to us about bullying, again. Lucas decided to sit in front of me, and just before it started, he turned around and said with the biggest smirk, "You know that person that I told you I liked? Well, I never did like her, actually. It was kind of a joke." He turned back around and tossed me away like I was an old rag left to rot. It was the most awfulest thing anyone ever did to me. All that time we spent together, all that we meant to each other, was just a big game to him. He never cared about me at all. I say I don't hate him, but sometimes I wonder if that's true. Maybe it was just something I said so Brooke would get off my case. But how would she know? She's never had her heart ripped out in front of her and stomped on. So now I'm wondering, am I in too deep with Tyler? I'm almost 100% he doesn't like me back, but sometimes a body can wonder. I've decided I won't make a move until he does. I tried that once, and it didn't work out so well. I don't think Tyler would break my heart a second time, but I didn't think Lucas would do it the first time, either.