You know, when Lucas told me he lied about liking me a few weeks ago, I was really down. I mean REALLY down. You probably don't know this, but shortly before I got an account on here, I was extremely suicidal. I don't think there was a night I couldn't get through without trying to smother myself in my pillow or drowning myself in our pool. And why? For no good reason that I can think of. When Lucastold me how he really felt about me, it reopened all those emotions. Emotions that I don't know how I could have ever felt. I have so much to be thankful for, and when I look back on how I was all those months ago, I become ashamed. So very ashamed..... But I've learned. I've learned from my mistakes, and I've become stronger. Lucas is like a brother to me, and falling in love with your brother is incest, and it's a crime!Sonow thatI'm over myself, I want to do something great and spectacular for the whole world! I want everyone to be happy and join hands!That's my new goal. To make a difference! I encourage all of you to reach out and make a difference in someone's life this week!GOD BLESS YOU ALL!