Well it finally happened! Lol...Azure_Supernova and I are finally dating!! :D As of 10:11 a.m. on February 17th!! ^_^
As many of you already know that I was the one who kinda broke the ice and asked him out first!! Lol. But he soon followed with his own question. :D ^_^ I mean what can I say...I'm totally in love with the guy!! XD He makes me the happiest I've ever been in a very long time. I can be myself around him and not hold back! And that's a great feeling that I hope he feels in return! :D He certainly is one of a kind and a treasure that I hold dear to my heart! ^_^
Earlier that day I had my first appointment with my new therapist as well. It went a lot better than I thought it would. It seemed easier for me to kinda open up to her actually. And I have Tom to thank for that, he helped me a lot ever since we started talking. :D I have this feeling that I can finally get over my past and move on. My past has always affected me through out my life and in return has held me back from so many things. But now I feel that I have a bright future with Tom. Because finally someone understands me and loves me for me. :D And that's the best feeling I ever felt. ^_^ I can see it in his eyes when he looks at me even through the msn video call thing. ;) His gaze makes my legs weak and a hundred million butterflies in my stomach!! XD Not to mention that really good nervous feeling. It's like a drug to me now. Lol. He makes me feel wonderful! :D
So yeah, my life is finally falling into place for me. :D I'm dating the most random, gorgeous, caring, unique, smexxii guy ever!! :lol: And I plan to make him the happiest he's ever been as well. Because his smile makes me feel like mush!! Lol. Well I'm out. Peace peoples. :P
It is not easy
loving someone from a distance.
But the pain
of being so far draws the love ever so closer.
The longing to see the one I love
reaffirms in my heart
that this love is for real.
It wont run away like the tide,
it wont fade away
like a distant landscape.
It will become
what we have been waiting patiently for-
a relationship that's not distant.