cheerleading hasent been fun. things have gotten wierd since we did that hockey game. i dont know...maybe it's me, but the girls seem a little on edge lately. i cant say anything w/o getting "attacked". let me explain.
person x(girl whos name shall not be spoken): i cut my hair
me: u cant tell
person x: well duh, it's in a ponytail.
me: lets see..i have the rollers, the straighter, & the liquid gel straighter...
person x: ME TWO! ME TWO! (in sassy tone of voice)
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me *at baseball game one day*: were jewish...
her: SHUT UP SHUT UP!
me: what? it's true... my paternal grandma is. i consider my self "of jewish hertiage."
her: then why did your mom say she was going to church...
me: she can. i go to the non demonial church...i like it there
her: whtever. SHUT UP!
me: it's true. i can start naming the pastors of the church.
her: :| whtever
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there other "incidents" such as these that have occured at practice. it's mostly verbale abuse. this is the reason i dont want to talk to any one at pratice. i refuse to speak with anyone now. i dont want to even add to any conversations because i might "na ah", "SHUT UP", or get cut off during a sentance. today the co-sponsor was talking about a car she wants, then person x mentions she might get a jeep during the summer. now, i could have mentioned the weekend rental of the charger, but i could have been "attacked" with a nasty face and "na ah". then anthor girl who i thought was my friend starts talking about cancun. ok...i've been twice. seen the pyramids of techaniah and wht not. second we swam went to xelha and another place, a cruise, etc. but, knowing "x" i would been attacked. shes the only person who does this, and wht worse is i dont have anyone covering my back. they stop and stair and this goes on and on. i dont understand. i said i was going to put pics of them in local and school newspaper. there are 4 pics of us. 1) group pic. 2-4 pics of the puc dropping.
me: good & bad news! were coming out in the school newspaper. but i talked to the guy of the local paper and he said our pics are going to comeout in any given sunday. since my dad only submited 2 pics, 1 might be printed, the other may not or maybe both.
"friend": oh...you cant even see us
x: yea, you cant even see me
"friend": all you see is my shoe *refering to the puc dropping pic*
x: yea mine too!
me: you can see me...
"friend" and x: i hope the group pic comes out only!
me: we'll see on sunday.
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wesnday, i went to a detaologist over my zits ((not to many, but still). so i dident go to pratice. same day i also put up about 8 flyers for cheerleading practice. but 4 have been ripped down. i dont know why...i think it's an inside job. why else is everyone elses flyers r still up and 4 of mine are gone? i told some ppl about it and they either laugh or suggest it might be someone who is against cheerleading. yea right...i still think it's an inside job. i told "friend" about the ripped flyers.
now i think "friend" told the other girls about the ripped flyers while i was gone. and i think they were talking about me and even i heard "she is thinking of leaving the squad." ok...yes...i want leave it if i'm being treated like a scrub. i hope rumers dont start and theres a nasty falling out of some sort. i thought these girls were my friends and if x continues to bite, i'm going to be forced to speak with "toungue of nails". if that doesnt work, talk to the sponsor. if not, well then i'm going have to leave. the group can stay in thier squaller, and the co-sponsor who now shows up can be the mustang again. i dont know..i want to contine being the mascot, aslong as i dont get pushed around.
yesterday at pratice, i was totaly quiet n totally ignored them all. i dont want to speak to anybody. i dont want to get "attacked" because i'm speaking the truth. they were like "whats wrong?" i just shook my head. sat away from the group. now, i shouldent be acting weird, but c'mon. being the mascot isdent going to be worth it if i get critized for putting pics in papers, and talking. you see, i left the practice twice to go the computer dept, to get my work study application signed by one of the computer club folks. then after that, i came back, sat down super quietly, dident look up, bought a soda, saw seceratary of kinesology sign work study refernce area, waited for another teach to sign work study form by the door. instead the cheerleading sponsor signed it for me. then she met w/all of us, talked, and wht not.
i asked God to send me ppl i can trust. i saw most of the computer club ppl and my neighbor not once but twice.