Settings of current life and up to dates

Well so far in life i'be never had a journal i can truely write things i think with my own mind i mean after all the security around my house? its like a family jailhouse minus a few things, or not.Now at this age i'm currently 15 and life is a bit of a drama sometimes and my birthday is in november coming up soon of couarse when i'm a junior.Now its the summer of sophmore year =] and now going to Mega acedmy to take SAT prep.

Edit' July6 2007

sorrie about that i had to cut off writting about my journal and do my mega hw and my essayT.T gee and i didnt even get to study for the test at all -.- so anyway my up coming life line lol

School Life

Life was ok back then hmmmm i had a ok amount of friends but u know had people push me around and such like teasing me for being chinese and a 'chino" and how i look and such nonsense which is really annoying hmm then there was the time i think in my kindergarden years hmm i was a happy person who went to P.S 89 and during the following years i've had sorta gotten into a fight with this one chinese boy called patrick punched me in the stomache after he unbuttoned my tie to annoy me and ran circles around i have gotten incredible mad. and well i was tuff person back then to reallie keep people away from know i was a softie and i didnt wanna get hurt and show it wanted to be tuff so i acted it.this boy he punched me in the stomache and i cryed and was in shock and he just smiled so i kicked him and we eventually got in trouble by this lady that was in charge of looking after the students in the court yard that was getting ready to be pickedu p the there teachers.so when my teacher finally came the situation was explained to her but u know she didnt do anything to punish me and sent me the nurse for anything that may have effected me by tthe hit.though i think i believe now that i only cryedof shock and a little bit of pain.

Mmmm i had my first crushthis neirghbor of mineonly basically becuase he was "cool" but i believe foolish now anyway and then because after i have rarely liked any guy at all and if i didnt not for who they werei wasnt attracted to guys besides looks.

Going to jr.high (I.S 73)school was the same taunts in class average scorer in school and iwas a normal 8-12 a pretty low class and umm well though life wasnt going my way in and i hung out with smart people in sp classes the smarts ones and my consider old best friend used to be lily fung we used to hung out and such and u know she dates this boy james lam and he had a twin which i eventually like though i hardly understand whyibelieveit was cause i only liked the idea of havinga bf just like lily.then again during times like those it maybe hard but u know life iwas nice no one knewt he truth of life and hated its very existance.though u know back then during 6th kam this boy that used to like many girls including me acted oddly and such werid ways it was a tease and funny lol.then along the times that many of my friends where sp students after jr.high school and people have gone there seperate ways to different schools infact acually well knoew schools with high reputation meanwhile me i was mad and jelouse and when the summer from 8th grade to freshamn in high school i had go on vacation to malaysia,it was fun we went to clear beaches and swam and also gone to different sorts of lands and such where we had much trouble in our wayst o china,my family had befriended many people on the tour bust and for 2 weeks we were together we were happy though there was many disturbances.like a gay man who had though hewas one enuff to go against the tourers and act as if he had power and we where beneath him.he was such a annoyance.as time went on i still remember to this day when i cryed in the hotel whenwe went on onf of the vacations and i was picked on by my parents and recieve names like stubborn,stupied and in my words was no fair.i was just picked on.the after the summer eventually i kept a bit of a contact with my few left over friend mostly boys like bin and hampton and thats really about it.the prom however when i had a nice dress was pretty and nice and had gone over to my coupel of sp best friendsh ouset o dress up and after we went to the prom to whihc i believe gave a girl a shock and made her cry because she had liked this boy and i had told him she had cry,thouh i understood afterwords i was such a ass for doing so and i feel truely guilty for it but u know to this day i cant face her for what i have done.and during my senior year i've cut classes a couple of time or time to time for entertainment.i still remember the volleyball game my class was in and had won 3rd place and even know i have the medal to show i had been part of that event.

School eventually started again and it was the freshman year of high school and i was determinded to be the best and score high averages which i did a 93% something i find to me to be proud of afterall my no working self had a average of 84%.i studyed living enviroment and tryed my best at that time i had given up on bf and gf and such nonsense and made a bit amount of friends and had a wonder fully teacher ms.plasky for the first half of the year which was the last when she had gave up teaching to becoem a floreist for plant agriculture.well lets see now my classes have my normal classes for honors and mostly was it and became great friends with henry and sarah and alexandra.but u know we were the cream of the crop we had good grades and we were friends now as i know now henry was a betraying no good lier,though i didnt back then and anyso he had gotten me into fights with a friend name moses and at a time.he had also come from the same jr.high school as me and he had told me jonathan had a crush on me over the years now and i had no interest in jonathan lam.so through out it all he had some how or jonathan had said truthfully he liked me but u know even know i'm not so sure after all henry had hinted at jonathan to come over and speak to me. and stand wit me because he liked me but talking to him currently now he had not interest or like in me at all and i am glad thats that.

Now my second year of high school which i s not rasists at all and no teasing which is good to know and my friend though some are bi and liked the same sex i find i have no objection and root for them.now lets see me and henry have stop communicating after a fight with another friend and i have gotten a so called stalker name victor gee to this day i see him as the person who cause the most trouble with the less amount of common sense he has.he had started to like me and wanted to ask me towards the begin of the year to be his gf but u know i wasn ot interested at all and he was very persistance and has told me he "loves" me,i believe he had rushed into thing way to quicky when there was no progess to begin with. and week later i had a bf =] someone i never knew would like me but u know i love him,i might as well start from the begining after all everything starts there =] well during near the end of my freshman year i had met a friend over the computer who was a friend of a friend and had gone to the same tkd i had.and we had met up i had found his name was jongseong and he had brought his friend jeffrey where as we hung out at the mall my so called memory tells me.then after jeffrey had my sn and had aimed me to hangout again to play pool with my old school friend jennifer and on of his friends jonathan chu and since we had gotten to know each other well jeffrey had invited me to hangout again with his friends likfe sam and chankyu.Then there was the time where he introduced me to minsoo and me jeffrey minsoo and fat sam(he was a bit blubber so sam became fat sam lol)had gone to jeffreys house and played gamesand such and where hangout with minsoo led to meeting jonathan tom(monkie so called) and we hung out alot but whats odd is that monkie,jonathan tom had gone to china town and we had fun in the end he had his arm around me and i slept in his arms,odd.and during the summer me and jeffrey have gotten into a fight and minsoo had become very close.I still remember the time i met minsoo when he had scraed me and we hung out and where happy and the time monkie when i first met him it was raining and he had wet pants that smelt like fish watter when he jumpedinto puddles to get the smell of though he didnt and it was contagious and had gone to minsoos shirt collar.also in the end i found out of al the people who were nice to me "jeffrey,minsoo,fat sam,jonathan,monkie" had liked me.anyway near the end the summer was brians birthday party,minsoos best friend.where as minsoo had forced me to go saying "if u dont i wont like u" and i did when i met new people like rebecca,and this girl i dont recall her name at the moment and john ahn where we were become friends.and had lost a fake bet in dealt cards and that for brians party we had all gone to ckarrioke and after foodie at his house and hungout and then after i met this boy john who i though was odd when i tryed to talk to him and he had kinda ignored me a bit.but he poked me on the stair case up.gosh i though he was odd and i liked him lol.he was cute i though and hes the same age and brian had introduced me to him while i was on his tramploine.but at the end of the party i had gotten john ahns and rebecca and the othe rgirls aim and had added them though iwas hyper i didnt know john well enuff so i didnt ask him and he was so silent i didnt know if he disliked me or not.and i was hyper so i had no clue what was going on time when by so fast and then.talking to john ah non aim he gives me johns sn and when he finallys logs on i talked to him.

And in an instant we connected and we talked for more then 5-7 hours a day and had more to say to each other then one day he said "i wish u were my gf" and though this clinched what i though.i really liked him and he had log off raight after while i was doing my global hw,talk about perfect timing.and u know after he told me he loves me and i knew i liked him but i cared for his so much and i also felt i loved him too and i told him so and that i love him for who he is.where this time came along victor the annoying he started asking me and out and such since i told john everythign about my day he got seriously mad and annoyed and began and still to this day hate his guts.the day he victor had asked me out was johns birthdya and he had asked me to his birthday party and i had bought him something that brian helped picked it out for me.and u know john was nice to me and well after 6 days on the 23rd of september we went on our frist date,but we were a called soupl on the 22nd of september=] and victor had became a nusiance after.well..school was ok having a 90% on my average and sarah and alex had a arguement i believe of my fault because alexandra had been disgusted with sarahs pervertedness and well me and hubie.john i gave him a nickname of hub and well as for husband =] and i do love him and i cry when i feel sad of a fight with him.though it was rough at the start where we fought almost every....2-3 day but u know me and hub started talk through dramatic fighting hiting smacking and such we're well on it now after all we have been through alot and now its july and on the 22nd of it it will be 10th month together =] i love him so and there where tights and squeezes where we had to get through but i go through it and troubles are mostly over.we bearly fight anymore and shout but sometimes once on a blue moon we do.

-thats why this journal is here to record everything in my hubs words "look back at when where older and remember our childhood memories"