Today was alright. School got cancelled due to high winds. I was surprised. However I still had to go to hockey practice. I literally had force feed myself so I wouldn't starve. Practice was from 1:00-3:00. Not too much of a problem, right? If I was informed that I had to go sooner, it wouldn't have been. My mother came home at 11:30 and said that I had to go to the optional practice (which it was and only about 75% of the team was there.) I then had to jump into the shower and engage in my morning routine. I got out of the bathroom at about 11:55. I then prepared a lunch of Ramen and a sandwhich. Needless to say, I wasn't even hungry...

That just kind of ruined my afternoon. Practice was extremely boring. We played "ghetto hockey" for an hour. Then hda  scrimmage for the second hour. Very uneventful...

The second half of the day was nice though. I played some Guild Wars, got to level 8. The guy I played with yesterday said he invited me into his guild, but I still don't have an invitation. Oh well...

I was glad to see that my lyrics got a good comment. Thanks again SavoyPrime. I'll post another song today. I probably won't post much more though... it may sound dumb, but seeing as I don't have copyrights and the internet is a very open place... Needless to say I just don't want anyone plagurizing my work.

Tomorrow I have a game, hopefully it'll be out last. It's really the only game I've hoped to lose... I just want the season to come to an end. I think the only person that has enjoyed this season is my mom. My dad apologized to me today for pressuring me into playing varsity. He doesn't even like the team...

Either way, I have at least 2 more days left... so damn close.

-Rabidus

This is Me

I look in the mirror and ask
Who it is
I stare in the corner and wonder
Why not me?
It took a deep look
inside myself
And now I've accepted that
This is me

I walk by myself and I
Don't know why
I cast out others so I
Don't cry
But it takes a deep look inside to wonder
But I've finally accepted that
This is me

I look around and see fear
And I can't see why
I look at myself and I
Want to die
It's a hard thing to wonder of who you are
But I've finally accepted that
This is me

And I see my reflection change from
White to black
Null and void my soul drifts on
Away from me
And I can't seem to know what
Happened to me
But thanks to no one
This is me

And I'll throw away my life just to
Get away
And I'll live and die not to
Fade away
I'll make my mark and say
This is me

I see my reflection the
Demon man
I look beside me I'm
Satans right hand man
And I ask you what you would do
But I'm the only one
To be me


[This song is actually very personal. It describes how I've changed over the past few years. Each two (paragraphs? I don't remember poetry terms...) represents a different year. The song is done, however it leaves out the final year. The song is apart of a series.]