Today was slow and boring. I had to leave my house at 4:00 to go to hockey. I just got back and it is now 10:13. Everything I hoped for didn't happen. I wanted us to lose so badly. I wanted hockey to end. Alas, we won 5-2...

Yet another week of ****ty practices only for me to sit on a bench and watch. I can only hope that we lose. I don't know if I can handle going to the state finals and thus extending the season another month or so... I can't possibly tell you how much hate as built inside of me towards one thing. It's been such a waste of time.

Tommorrow will be nice though. Gage, Max and I are going up to the Games Workshop. I need to get some more paints and some modeling sand. Plus, it's always fun to go there. The guys that work there are pretty cool, with the exception of one. I can't remember his name, (Jake?) but he's a Space Marine fanboy. My Orks can kick his Space Marine ass anyday.

Yes, I play Warhammer and Warhammer 40,000. I build and paint small models and it's fun. As for that matter, I too play Dungeons & Dragons. Not the video games, but the real, original RPG.

I am, to every extent, a geek. I am proud to say that. While I don't lable myself "geek" I do accept the term when it is addressed towards me. However I still find it hard to take when people call me "goth" and "Satanic." I'm neither, which is why I take it offensive...

Again, glad to see someone likes my lyrics. I think only one person actually reads my blog, but oh well. Better than none. I do wish to share my thoughts with more than one person though. As Marilyn Manson said in The Long Hard Road out of Hell, "...you don't really keep a journal for yourself, but rather for other people."

-Rabidus



[The Long Hard Road out of Hell by Marilyn Manson one of my favorite books. I would recomend everyone to read it. Hell, even if you don't like Manson, the book shows alot. If I got anything at all out of it, it was hope.]