I find that the greatest obstacle I have to posting more of my thoughts is that I am obsessed with perfecting their articulation to an unrealistic degree. I recently was trying to write a rough draft for a review of the movie "Ju-Rei" while I had spare time at school, so I was working on it on and off. I started it yesterday. Today I looked at it and, amongst my scribbles, I found I had written and re-written the very first sentence some fourteen times before I even moved on to the second sentence. This afternoon, as I sat idly at a meeting, it occurred to me that no one would mind if I started to jot down some of my fairly random thoughts so that I could organize them into a rough essay to post online later. I simply wanted to voice some of my thoughts about patterns of socialability of formerly introverted people. Within five minutes my paper was covered with rewordings of the first sentence.
     For those who have not experienced this, it's terrible! Even the simplest thought is undermined by an intense desire for all thoughts to be perfectly organized before they are articulated. For example, say I wanted to express "Why do I love cats" as the theme of an essay. On my rough draft, I might begin with, "While the affections of many are inclined on the superficial, my attitude towards cats is based on...", then, "I find that my attitude towards cats contrasts with those of my contemporaries because of...", then, "In the formulation of a conceptualization, it is essential to circumlocate one's perspective with an eclectic spectrum of dissention. In my conceptualization of cats..." and so forth.
     It is apparent how this continual editing and revision in my mind actually obscures my meaning, and is self-defeating. I realize this, but I just can't stop. I find it even enters my thoughts, as when I consider an idea, I concentrate so much on how I am going to think it that I forget what I was thinking. It is incredibly frustrating. Has anybody else encountered anything like this?