Even though I've said this enough I'll say it again. My family is ****ed up and extremely disfunctional. My mom is completely incapable of doing anything right, my dad is a racist ***, my older brother is a freeloading ******* and my older sister is alright though but we don't talk. Only me and my little sister get along though my little sister isnt very bright so I'm all alone.

Here's a breif description on my dad: He's extremely patriotic, he's racist and very biased, he has a bald spot (ewwww) and he just screms too freaking much. The only parent that can be a worse parent than him is a molester

Now to the reason why I said he was an ass. My parents went grocery shopping and when they came back he was screaming at my mom for buying stuff for herself and was talking to himself and mumbling. And when he walked in he stepped in some mud and his shoes had mud on them so he got mud all over our rugs. Then before I know it, he's screaming at my mom to clean up HIS mess. When I finally think things start settling down, he goes to my little sister and starts yelling at her to change her pants because he was able to see part of her underwear and he didnt like how many pockets it had on it.

Now I dont mean to be the sheep I hate, but it's ***** like him from his crap country that make me sick and make me angry, depressed and suicidal. His racial prejudice interferes with my social life. Though he isn't saying the stuff he does when he's around them, when they are gone he will ask me why I dont hang out with one friend in particular (Obesechipmunk). He has diabetes and some heart problems so I know he wont be living that long considering he's in his 50s (i've lost count of his age, I just plain don't care).

I've been attempting to isolate myself away from my family in hopes to get away from it. But because so many friends are inviting me to their houses/bday parties/the mall and stuff, I have to go to him and get his permission and then his racist side really shows.

I've been cutting myself lately. My veins dont stick out of my arm that much so I can't really did deep enough to slash them. But now they know I am doing this because my mom found a blood stained paper towel in the waste bin in my room and now they are starting to pay attention to me.


I hope my dad ****ing chokes on his own words and dies

he says that i am perfectly fine but it could be because i am stressed at something

my parents have noticed that i havnt been eating for the last week so they are taking me to see a doctor and are gonna see if they can get vitamins prescribed for me and see if there is some way to increase my appitite and solve my eating disorder

i went to the store and picked up chaos theory only to find out it was a DVD ROM disk which requires a DVD drive to play it. so i have to buy a DVD Drive for my computer JUST to play Chaos Theory. oh but when i do get it, i will have orgasms from how awesome the game is :D:D:D

today i tried to be like the girl from kill bill so i tried to see if i cud break thru wood (like when shes training with Pei Mei) and i punched a wooden desk and now my hand hurts :(

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school starts tomorrow :cry:

i saw my cat, Bangles lying down on my sister's bed so i went up and started petting him. Then he got up and walked to the right side of the bed and then when ever he tried to take a step, he would pull his paw back. i went closer to my cat and started petting him some more. then all of a sudden my cat almost fell off the bed but i caught him but when i did it looked like his leg was dislocated and my cat was screaming in pain. i put him in the middle of the bed and for the next minute he was just rolling around screaming and hissing in pain. then after a while he stopped and started breathing heavily and his front leg was fine. then all of this thick drool came gushing out of his mouth, i cleaned it up. then i was petting him then all of a sudden he gets up and walks away like nothing ever happened. i think he had a seizure, but he didn't pass out. poor kitty

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