The topic of this entry says it all really... It's a Friday night and i'm staying in, lurking around on GS and planning a night of Nazi Zombie killing with a good friend of mine.

I was supposed to be meeting my girlfriend tonight but she mentioned that a couple of her friends were going to be meeting up for a few drinks. I, being the noble soul that i am, immediately told her that she should meet her friends and that she shouldn't feel bad about cancelling our quiet night in....

But really i was thinking 'Yes!!! Xbox Live all night baby!!!'

I think that does make me a bad boyfriend.

I'm suffering a crisis here because i don't feel like a bad boyfriend, why must i feel guilty because i have a hobby that i love? I have gone to great levels of personal torture to prove to my girlfriend that i am interested in what she likes, for example, i haven't been to an Everton match for around 2 years because i know how much she loves me to carry her shopping bags for her on a saturday. I've also stood (and drank, heavily) through a number of rubbish gigs of bands that i didn't really want to see because she wanted to go. So why is it that if i suggested to her that she joined in with me in a 2 player co-op of Left4Dead that she would pull her face and more than likely leave my house in a rage?

I've tried to bring my girlfriend into my hobby, I bought a Wii and left it in her house so whenever we had a quiet moment we could have a bit of Mariokart fun or a sedate spot of tennis. That didn't really work out, it gathered dust in her front room and i eventually sold it in despair (after seeing the release listings for new games) to some (i'd imagine) porky housewife who had read about Wii fit in the Sun or something like that.

So i bought a DS for her, i had one and i knew that she loved Pokemon so i thought that i'd be great. So we both played Pokemon for a while, but there is something sad and lifeless about sitting in a room with the one you love and staring intently at a screen that only you are privy to. We tried Animal Crossing (which she loved and i found pointless) and i perservered with that for a while.

I made a bit of progress with Portal, she loved it which surprised me to be honest. But once you have completed it there is very little to go back to. So i thought... hmm... maybe she'd like Braid, it's got a sad story and a fair bit of platform and puzzle action going on... she didn't like it.

I decided that she probably wouldn't share my new found respect for Fifa (i was always a PES kind of man, WAS being the key word) so i've never asked her to join me in a co-op league or cup, although what says 'I love you' more than 'I know that you just got Yakubu sent off in the first minute of the cup final for kicking a defender that was no where near the ball, but i still think that we can win this because i have faith in your dynamic wing link up play'???

So yes, here i am, on a Friday night, alone. For now, but in a few hours i will be screaming to my best friend to 'retreat and fall back to the safe room, this area is lost' and we shall ensure that the number of undead Nazi's will have been reduced in the virtual world in which i enjoy some of my finest hours...

I am a bad boyfriend, but she is worse at Beautiful Katamari...