I am cheap, I won't pay a dollar to download a song...or buy an MP3 player...

I also have a frozen heart, I've never felt compassion...

My daily life consists of this:

Wake up and get ready for school, but hearyelling coming from family...

Got to school, hoping that a girl will want to talk to me...for the first time in my life...

While at school, get made fun of for what ever I do...

Go home to more yelling and complaining, and when I do something good, I get critisized for what I didn't do correctly, even on my report card...

Get treated unfairly because my parents like bro and sis more than me...

Continue to get yelled at and hearing yelling andcomplaining until I go to bed...

Go to bed and begin cycle all over again...

Now that I'm in summer vacation, I have to be with family 24/7
Why?
I live in the middle of nowhere and my closest friend is 2 hours walking...I can't even walk because where I live there are no sidewalks...and my parents won't bring me over to theor house...

It's been like this since my brother was born...or in other words...for 9 years...I have felt no compassion or caring for 9 years...none from girls, which I really want one as a friend...I'm not that manly, but I'm not gay I gust like being with girls because they are nice and caring...but it never happened in my whole life...and I feel no compassion from my parents...

But don't worry!!!
I can live with this...I have been for 9 years, and I'm gonna have too!!! (In other words...I won't kill my self, or become depressed...)

:'(