I know it's supposed to be the holly jolly season, and we're supposed to be spreading as much love and joy as we possibly can to those around and close to us. You'd expect some of the feelings I've felt for a while now to subside and back off atleast a little in these "fun times", and while I've hoped that they would, I've done so in vain.Everybody being so happy around me, is only more of a reminder of how crappy I feel in most of my days.

I can't blame everyone else for being happy, hell... I'm happy for them. But the contrast just makes it seem that more apparent in my eyes, that I'm probably stuck this way for a while to come

 I often wonder what exactly it is that makes my days bite that special brand of ass, but it's an enigma to my underdeveloped and simple mind. I guess somethings are just best left unknown.Well I guess that's enough of my ranting, Happy freakin' holidays to anyone who took the time to read this blog post. All 3 of you...