And today that is a litteral statement, rather than a figurative one. I will likely ramble more than usual in this today, as I actually went to bed at 5:42am, and had to be up for my ride to work at 6:30. I was kind of late even for my ride (did not actually get up til 7) I am clean and sober. I never drink or do drugs. And days like today are part of the reason why: Who needs drugs when you can feel drugged just due to a lack of sleep. Sleep deprivation baby. I am a chronic insomniac. I have had insomnia for almost as long as I can remember. Which is to say I can remember being two years old, and my first memory of insomnia is of when I was 5. Notice I said that I would be rambling. I am. I know I am. And I can not give any real reason why. Oh, yes, insomnia. So, last night. I did not get to sleep until 5:42am. I got tired of trying to sleep around 1 am. I got up. Watched some shows. Next thing I know it is after 5:30. And I am really tired, and go to lie down. Do you think I actually sleep at this point? Nope. I did not actually fall aslep til after 6 :(. I am really tired, but there is nothing I can do about it now. I must work for 8 hours and then, hopefully, I will be able to slip into the sweet surrender of sleep.