Last evening wasn't a very nice one. i felt so anxious because i'm 21, a virgin and never dated anyone. i just don't know if it's now too late to find some one i like, and that would accept those facts. But then again, i've also been thinking that why is it so that everybody has to have a bf/gf, or otherwise you're just a piece of scum that no one likes. It can't be the only goal in life! it's just can't! It's just an absurd idea that the only goal in life is to find some one else to be with!

So i've decided that i'm not gonna get anxious or depressed again just because i don't have a bf. it's not the only thing in life, i have other goals as well! One of the biggest ones is to receive a brown belt in Han Moo Do, and perhaps in Taek Won Do. i really don't want to be afraid on streets at night anymore, or need some one to take me to a bar because of some stupid rapists! i want to be able to defend myself!