It's been almost a month since my last update. I haven't been posting in anyone else's blogs, so I'm not expecting many replies. But as always, this is more for me than anything.

Speech and Debate

I'm getting the feeling that I suck. Last year I took Acting and I got the impression that I could act...I mean, the teacher told meI should join Speech so I did. I went from no experience, to little experience, and now I'm in way over my head. I can't compete with the people I've seen...actors should be flexible. They should be able to play lots of parts. I can't. I can play a normal guy, and that's it...and that won't get me anywhere. What sucks the most is that I had to find it out on my own, always getting encouragement along the way. It sucks. It reminds me of something else that happened.

Band

Our Tenor 2 player for Jazz Ensemble...well, I don't know. She's been out for most of the year and I don't know what's wrong...everyone's been really worried and praying for her and thinking about her...but I don't know what's wrong.

Which made me even more uncomfortable when the director asked me to play her parts for the rest of the year...on tenor sax. Since I was a seat below her, I was the "logical" choice I suppose, but it feels weird...out of place. I feel like I'm replacing her and I shouldn't be.

But the worst part isn't that...it's that she's a genuinely good person. She doesn't deserve any of what's happening to her, whatever it is. I mean, you don't just leave school for a few months for the hell of it. It's terrible.

IHSSA

Here's something new. I'm in a one-act play...of course, confidence in my ability as an actor is almost completely shot. I'm the lead part...as far as I know, I'm a normal guy. Maybe I'll be able to pull that one off. I'd have to laugh, though, if I couldn't. The only person in the world unable to play himself convincingly.

Jeff

There have been countless blogs about this, and that's good. I'm sure that's the only thing, if anything, that people here will comment on now that I brought it up. I just have to say that it's messed up...they need to fix it, fast. He doesn't deserve it. He's a great person who's just doing his job. I'm sorry that your game sucks, maybe you should work on making it better instead of trying to get people fired. That's what I do...use constructive criticism when I get it to improve. Well, if I get it. Otherwise I just learn to realize it on my own.

GameFreak