O...M...G!!! What is her problem (im talking about my ex of course)!?! She won't leave me alone!!! She knows that she broke, no, SHATTERED, my heart, yet she still wants to be my best friend. I have told her time and time again that I dont think that I can do the best friend thing. I have told here that we can either be together, or not speak to eachother. There is no real in between. Why is that you ask? She broke up with me and I did nothing wrong. All I did was love her. I swept her off her feet. I gave her the time of her life. I bought her nice things without thinking or expecting anything in return. I protected her from her jerk of a stepfather. I did everything that I could do to show her that I loved (and i still do) her. This is starting to drive me insane. She sent me a text message earlier tonight for me to call her. I did, and guess what she told me. She told me this, and I quote, "I am thinking about comming back to you, but im scared to." I asked why. She told me that she was afraid to hurt me again. I told her that I didnt care if she hurt me or not, I just want her back in my arms again. I want to know that there is someone to fill the void in my heart. I asked her what she wants, and she says that she doesnt know. It has been three damn months, and she still doesnt know??? Im about to end all communication with her so that she can think. Oh and here is the kicker of it all. SHE ASKS ME TO CALL HER AND THEN DOESNT SAY A FREAKIN WORD WHEN I CALL HER!!!!! This especially pisses me off when I call her durring my short 20 minute break at work. I am close to the end of my line with this girl. The only thing that is keeping me here and contacting her is the fact that I am still madly in love with her. I just wish that she understood what she was doing to me so that she can make up her damn mind on what she wants. Its the not knowing that is the biggest torture to me. I would rather have her tell me that there was no way in Hell that she was comming back so that I can have some closure. But whatever. Im almost done with her. It will be the hardest decision that I will ever have to make in my life, but it might be something that I have to do for my sanity.

To those who read this and were able to follow it, thank you. This is just something that I really needed to get off of chest. Again. Thank you.

-JD

PS. I just realized that I have a really big nose. :(